anxietized ☹ halsey

viridity

viridity - naive innocence

EIGHT
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ashley watched nola as she did her homework. sure ashley had her own homework to do but nola was much more interesting. she wore these cute socks with her leggings and white crewneck. her hair was pulled into a half bun and she kept pushing up her glasses by scrunching up her nose.

so overall nola was adorable.

"so was that your brother?" ashley asked.

"yeah, it's usually just me, him and my younger sister esma." she said looking up at ashley. "she's at an after school program. but sometimes mum stops by. not often though, usually when she needs money or something." she shrugged.

"has it always been like that?" ashley asked. how can such an angelic girl have such a bad home life and still be as pure as she was. or at least as she seemed.

"noles." there was a nock on the door and lo's head peered through before opening it all the way. "i dropped tati off at rosemary's," nola nodded giving him a thank you. "i'm going out," he kissed the top of nola's head. "be good, don't start any fires."

"and no funny business." he made they watching you hand motion backing out of the door. "nice to meet you ashley."

"you too." he yelled something in spanish before shutting the door.

"what'd he say?"

"he-" nola cleared her throat. "he said that you're hot."

"oh."

"yeah."

"that's a little blunt." nola laughed lightly.

"he's a no shame type of guy." she tucked a stray piece of hair behind her ear looking up at ashley.

"are you saying that you're not?" ashley moved so she sat up on her knees.

"i mean i haven't done anything major-like to be ashamed of but-" she paused as if to gather the right words. "i don't know." she shrugged, feeling her face heat up.

"i don't really have much shame." nola looked at her questionably. "like you shouldn't have to be ashamed of yourself or who you are." nola picked at the lace in her socks nervously. "are you ashamed of who you are?" nola looked like she didn't know how to speak, continuously opening and closing her mouth.

"maybe? i mean i've grown used to being who i need to be-not who i want to be."

"well who does nola maritinez want to be?" nola shrugged.

"then that's what i'll to my project on." ashley crawled closer to nola.

"what?" nola asked sliding herself up against the wall.

"the real nola." nola stared at her differently then before, "the nola who doesn't hide, and the nola who would unashamedly look at my ass instead of doing it while i'm not looking."

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this is like 500 words so be thankful. plus my awkward selfie at the top hey ( ++ it makes me mad bc it was so nice but i feel really named without my glasses on so i don't even know if i like it)
- mae

have a happy night and remember that since thanksgiving is over everybody can be christmas asf without being shunned. i actually wore a santa hat today.

ily bye