Hurt

Unloved

Why do you never notice?

I’m hurting so much inside but you can’t see that

You’re so wrapped up in yourself you never notice me any more.

Constantly shouting at me instead

Stupid girl

What’s wrong with you?

Are you crazy/Mad/Mental?

Don’t use that tone with me.

I’ve cut before and I may cut again

The relief rushes out for that half minute then the pain kicks in

But it’s Ok, because the pain is overridden by the sweet relief

I see the cuts on my arms and I think ‘These are my battle scars’

You see the way I wince when my left arm hits against something

But you decide to be ignorant

You see the way I cover my arms even in the hottest weathers

But you decide to be ignorant

I’m not doing this for attention

I just need to relieve the tension

I cry myself to sleep at night

I just want someone to hear my plight

Not to pity but to understand

Not to sort out my problems but listen

All I want is to be loved

Is that to much to ask?