Hurt

Falling

I can’t do it anymore

I’ve stopped completely and it hurts so much

I’ve no sense of self control whatsoever

I only go around tidying up to keep my mind off it

The blade is like a drug

Pulling me in with every cut I cut

The worse I feel

The deeper I cut.

But now I can’t rely on that,

I can’t cut anymore,

I have no way to relieve all the tension,

I feel so insecure.

I’m drowning in my self,

My wounds, they can’t heal,

I feel like I’m just falling,

I don’t know what’s real anymore.