What you do to me (Durk&Dej).

4.

I woke up from a crazy night with my girls here in Detriot but my phone was going off like crazy. What is this I asked my self. I went on Twitter and all i could see was 'Durk so cute he needs to get with Dej loaf asap' twitter was turning up and I was mad confused as to why.

Nik send me a link to two interviews Durk done. One was with BET when they asked him if he had a coke who he gone share it with and he said me. I mean this couple of days Durk and i been playing around liking eachother picks commenting it aint that serious to me we just playing. The other blew me off my chair.
Interviewer: So what's going up with you and Dej loaf
Durk; nun thats my homie tho you feel me she cool if it happens it happens you feel me if if don't it don't
Interviewer; who is your celebrity crush
Durk; I ain't paying attention to that she the only one I want if she coming on me with it I'm taking it.
Interviewer; *smiles* what you like about her
Durk; everything man as i said she my homie she cool ans she not quick to judge.
Interviewer; We gone see you two in the future Durk and Dej
Durk; *smiles* D&D.

I felt my cheeks getting warm I mean shit ion know what to say. Every one wants us together but it's complicated.
I went down stairs as my girls was waiting for me.

'You finally awake' Des said. 'You seen the link i sent you' Nik asked me. I just nod my head. Des and Nik walked to me 'so what going on between you two cause I know you feeling him and clearly he feeling you' Des said. 'Y'all tripping i like girls y'all know that and he my homie we just cool playing lil games thats it' i said.

'Deja you are tripping ion think you like girls anymore I think you like Durk' Nik said. I'm getting real annoyed now. 'Dej man we family how you feel' Des asked. 'Nun I'm feeling good i want some henny' i said ignoring them. I sat down turning on the tv. Nik sat next to me 'stop lying to us we your family tell us how you feel'. I looked at Nik.

'Honestly I'm confused like i was convinced that I liked girls but when I'm with him i get butterflies i like being with him but I don't know i mean he got kids and babymoma drama who said he wants me' i said biting on my nails. 'But ain't nun wrong with liking Durk he cute and you know he into you stop playing games' Des said. 'Listen ion want to talk about this anymore aight' i said focusing on the tv.

The whole day I've been in my room avoiding people. Looking at Twitter people are so mean. I know im aware that I dress like a boy or they think I'm lesbian I've been with a girl yea but i never felt the way i feel when I'm with Durk. I went to studio trying to record some songs to keep my mind off these things. 'Why do fools fall in love' named this one because honestly Deja you are falling in love and I don't like it.

Going back to ATL because Durk invited me to one of his show he's doing with Jeremih. I wanted to say no but I really wanted to see him. This traveling lifestyle was exhausting but Joy and my bodyguard kept me company.

I didn't feel like making up my face with this makeup bullshit so I just decided to support Durk and Jeremih like this. I really had this fuck it attitude these days that I hated. Plus I needed to speak to Durk about all this crush nonsense.

'My Loaf you always outchea supporting your boy huh' someone said. I turned around and run into Dthang hands that my homie forreal. He was with a girl and she was holding a baby girl. 'This my girl FatFat and my daughter' he said introducing them.

I looked at her and smiled 'I'm a big fan' she said shyly. Dthang left me and Fatfat with her baby girl as we were catching up. Holing her baby girl made me want a baby so bad. 'So you and Durk dating' she asked me. I looked up at her ' Naw why erbody say that he just my homie'. 'Well it look like he into you commenting on Instagram and on Twitter flirting' she said raising a eyebrow.