Sebastian's Sister (A Black Butler Ciel Phantomhive Love Story)

Rant Time

Okay, so, I know I suck at updating, but I have been having so much drama that it's ridiculous. I am trying my hardest to update but with school, friends, and relationship crap, it's difficult. So, I would like to rant, and if you want to skip over this chapter, that is perfectly okay, I just need to get this all off my mind.

First of all, I am a bisexual girl. I, about a month and a half ago, dated one of my best friends, L, but she dumped me. What bothered me about this, is that she did it over text, right before we got to school. I have two classes in the very beginning of the day with this girl. Those two classes, I spent my time crying because of how upset I was. I had liked this girl for over a year and when she said she liked me back, I was ecstatic. I was so happy, someone that I liked actually liked me back. She asked me out, and we were together for about a month. Homecoming happened during that time, she asked me to it with a beautiful note and flower. Come homecoming, we had fun, we danced, and we kissed. During homecoming, she introduced me to this girl, a very nice, sporty girl, A. This girl kept my girlfriend company during a football game that I couldn't go to, so I thought this girl was pretty cool.

Skip ahead to about a week before L dumped me. Normally, before class starts, I'll get to school after L but go and hang out with her anyways. Now, I noticed how L and A had been hanging out a lot in the morning. This particular day, I stood right in front of L and A. A noticed me, L did not. I said something and L finally noticed that I was there, jumped up, hugged me, kissed me, etc. She then just sat back down and continued talking to A. This continued for the next day or two, and L, less and less, talked to me. She would talk more to A or this guy R, instead of speaking to me. Even at the end of the day, where we normally hang out at the bus ramp before she has to go, A started waiting there and L would go directly to her instead of me! One day, she just didn't talk to me and I was done. I just hightailed it out of the classroom and I was so close to making it to my class without her, and she caught up and demanded that we talk about it. I told her, I fucking told her, that I was sick of her ignoring me. Her reasoning is that A and R make her laugh, they were funny, and I wasn't. Two years of best friendship, and now she says I'm not funny. So, walked away from her, crying a little and just went through the day.

Three days later, she's texting me as I'm going to school. She wants to know if we're fine and I say we are but I'd appreciate if she would actually start talking to me. This leads to an argument and she says she wants to end it. I don't but if its what she wants, fine, whatever. Once I got to school, I texted my friend, J, and told him what happened. I was walking to the cafeteria, just trying to compose myself, and get a bottle of water. He saw me, my face was red, I was still crying, and he just hugged me. He held me, talked to me, was just there for me. For the next two weeks, I was not okay. Turns out, L didn't even like me, no, she liked the idea of someone liking her and she was lonely so she decided to try and fake feelings for me. For those two weeks though, I had J. He was always there for me, he hugged me, texted me, just comforted me when I needed it. L started dating A, and fucking flaunted it in my face. She even told me that she didn't like me, even though she pretended to, and she liked A during most of our relationship. So, I stopped talking to her. Just a few days without her and her shit was so blissful. Over time, because J was just so kind to me, and I got to know him better, I moved on from L and started to like him.

J, at the time, was dating someone else though and I respected that. I mean, he guessed that I liked someone, and he kept pressuring me to tell him, so I told him that it was him. He didn't feel the same, for the reason that he believes in loyalty, so only liking one person at a time. I stopped caring about L, I did, and focused just more on my actual friends. Then, J's girlfriend, H, broke up with him. This upset him so much, to the point that he called me one night and just ranted about it all. He told me he cried over her and just how much he missed her. She got a new boyfriend the very next day. This just killed J and I was there for him through it. Skip ahead a few weeks to maybe two or three weeks ago. J and I have gotten a lot closer, we text everyday, almost all day, and hang out after school at the local library until we have to go home. Now, J is saying he might like me and that he's over his ex. I want to make sure he does though because I don't want another heartbreak like L caused me.