Into The Nothing (Fear The Walking Dead)

Part 1 Chapter 2

[<~~ Gus]

Turns out it was just our neighbor Miss Robinson looking for some coffee neither Gus or I drink it so he gave her all of it. I wonder what she must of thought. Gus opening the door, thinking she was one of those things, with a knife. The poor old lady must've almost had a heart attack, I chuckled and I sat on my bed, I hugged the stuffed polar bear I have had since I could remember.

"Benji, how did I end up like this?" I asked the stuffed animal. I knew how I ended up like this, I just needed some justification to what I've done. He was not going to answer me so I put him on the floor.

I grabbed the carton of cigarettes I had in my bed side table. I took one out and lit it. I took a long drag and made smoke rings when I released the smoke. I remember my first boyfriend, when I was 15, made me smoke with him and now I can't stop. I heard the stairs creaking, Gus was coming up, I was about to put it out but he should know, I can't keep a secret forever. Even though he knows I do drugs, smoking has always been a sensitive topic because our grandfather died from it.

"Hey, it was just miss-" he stopped when he came into my room. He was probably shocked that I was smoking but he seemed to get over it quickly.

"Ahh yeah, it was just Miss Robinson looking for some coffee"

I nodded and took and another drag. "Gus, sit down". He sat down on the floor with his legs crossed in front of me.

"What is going on?" I asked. "Do you think everyone is going to be like that?" he didn't say anything, he started to bite his lip (which he does when he is thinking) then said "I honestly don't know, but there has been reports of it in 5 different states, but if there is something going on the authorities would tell us". I rolled my eyes

"They are not going to do shit" I mumbled. He looked at me with his eyes slightly wider and he did that smirk thing he does when he disagrees with someone.

"Winter, I don't know" he said sarcastically. "I don't know everything". I put out the cigarette. He was looking at it.

"Want to try?" I asked him holding up the white and red box. He looked at it and smiled "Sure, why not". He took out one the box and so did I.

I lit mine and gave him my gray skull lighter. It took him a while to get the thing lit, he is so scared of fire it is actually funny, but when he did he took a long drag and forgot to breathe out the smoke. He coughed like crazy.

"How the hell do you do this Win?" he said still coughing. I laughed at him. He was really cute, not in that way, but I am so lucky to have a brother like him. He would do anything for me, he would rather die for me than save his own life. Sad thing is, this is the last time I am leaving tonight. If the world is about to over run with the walking dead, I would rather be by myself than have him look after my hopeless ass, besides he can cope, he is a survival enthusiast. I sat and watched him for a while, he was trying to blow rings with the smoke but he failed, he was really happy (even with the cigarette), his brown eyes were full of light.

"Thanks, but no thanks" he said looking at the cigarette. I gave him the silver tray where I usually put them out. He successfully put it out but he started hitting the tray with it, in turn destroying it. Gus stood up and opened his arms for a hug. I stood up to and gave him one, I held on to him tightly. I am going to miss his hugs and he smells really good too almost like strawberries...

"I love you Winter" he whispered. I said it back and let go. "Okay, this is way to Meta, it needs to stop" I said smiling. "I don't think you used that word right" he said before he left my room. I stood there for a while looking around, looking at all the pictures on my walls, I took in all the memories and I started packing. I used the brown leather backpack to put in all the essentials: socks, a toothbrush, some 'survival' clothes and some irrelevant things like eyeliner and mascara.