Overthought H.S

Chapter 2

"Mum I'm home" I shouted up the stairs. I took a deep breathe in and shut myself in my room. I needed to unpack but how could I when I had no effort to do a thing? I was numb. There was a weight constantly pulling me down causing me to feel like this.

I sat on the floor with a box of photos. As I turned the pages, memories flooded into my mind. The hurt and pain of what we had left behind. I never talk about my feelings anymore, people just assume I'm okay because I'm 'Estelle' and 'Estelle is always happy'.

"Mum" I shouted not expecting a reply.
"... I'm off out."

I grabbed my coat and slid my feet into some wellies. The sky had began to darken and I could see the strong moonlight glaring through the windows. The cool air hit my face causing shivers to crawl up my spine.
I focused on the crunch of the leaves as I walked to the lake for the 2nd time today. Anne's house had fairy lights outside on the balcony with pretty roses near the front door.

I took my time walking to the lake, I was in no rush. As I approached it, my body relaxed and I laid looking at the stars. I had never expected to feel like this. My eyes followed the coloured flashing lights across the night sky.

Clouds of breathes constantly escaped my lips, I didn't realise how cold it was. It didn't bother me as much, I already felt cold inside. My eyes wandered around the beauty of the night- peaceful. I was free here, free from the cage that surrounded me. I didn't want to move, I wanted to stay here. My head began to pound when I sat up. Stray tears slid down my cheeks and I continued to stare out at the quiet lake.

"Hello? Are you okay?" A raspy voice said from behind me. I sniffled and wiped my cheeks.

"You'll freeze out here." He said, softly.
I looked down at my hands shaking and took a deep breath.

"I'm fine, just needed to clear my head. How about you?" I smile, still looking down at my hands. I felt the presence of his body next to me, now sat beside me. My eyes slowly looked up at him, a brown mop of curls on his head with vivid green eyes. I was in awe.

"Same" a look of pain flashed across his  face before he quickly managed to hide it away.

"-anyway, I'm Harry. You're new here right?" He smiled, shadows cast across his strong facial features, that I had grown to like in the space of 2 minutes.

"Yeah I am, I'm Estelle. I love the scenery here." I said shyly. I tried to make conversation about something, anything.

"Estelle" he whispered to himself.

"Was you in the bookshop today by any chance?" He asked and seemed genuinely interested.

"I was yes. I just needed to get out the house for a bit and get used to the new area." I beamed.

"You've met my mum Anne then? And I'll show you around properly sometime if you want?" He smirked.

"Ohh yeah she drove me back home. She's lovely. And that would be nice thank you."

"Anytime. Come on its freezing and late." He stood up and offered me his hand.

I smiled and he pulled me up. The walk back from the lake was in a comfortable silence.

"So how long have you lived here?" I asked. I studied his face and his mood seemed to change.

"A while" he snapped and stormed up towards his door and slammed it, leaving me stood in shock. I only asked a question. Maybe he doesn't like to talk about his past? That made me even  more curious about him.

I sighed and walked across to my house and opened the door. Mum had fallen asleep on the sofa. I reached out to the fluffy throw and gently pulled it over her, careful not to wake her up.

Before I reached my room, my little sisters door and was open and she stood looking up at me with sad eyes.

"What's up sweet?" I cooed and knelt down so I was at her level.

"I had a nightmare. Can you read me a story?" She said sweetly.

I nodded and picked her fragile body up. The room was still full of boxes. I swerved past them and placed Maisie on the bed and tucked her in. She snuggled up to a big teddy bear and held my hand.

I began to read her a story and she fell asleep halfway through. I gently unlocked my hand from Maisie's tiny one and gently placed a kiss the top of her head. I was determined to make sure she didn't feel like I do when she grows up. She doesn't deserve to, she's too sweet and innocent. I closed her bedroom door and decided to get some sleep.

As soon as my face hit the pillow, I was engulfed into a trap some call sleep.

Song - so cold by Ben cocks

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Sorry for such an awful story so far but I'm trying to get to the main parts.