A new start book 1 | Completed

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Tobias POV. 🤑

''What do you mean you don't know?'' I ask. ''I mean.'' She starts. ''This place has so many bad memory's maybe once I'm better I can travel and explore you know enjoy life maybe.'' She says slow as talking to a child.

''You have to come back. What about me or Christina?'' ''What about you?'' She asks rhetorical. ''Its not like you were on my side and you just watched me bleed.'' She says annoyed.

I have no answer cause she's right, I never stopped her cutting and I wasn't on her side.

''I-I-Look I'm sorry.'' I whisper. ''Yeah, well I am too. Goodbye Four.'' She says and runs off. I don't go after her I just stand there and think,

''What did I get myself in to?''

Tris POV.

I run away from him and back to my house. Tears fall down my face. When I get home I head to my room and fall on the floor and lean my head on my bed. I pull my head up and bring my knees to my chest and pulls my sleeves of my sweater down and look at all the cuts ands burns I have.

I need to do one more, just one. I get up and run into my bathroom looking for a blade or razor. "Come on." I say looking through the cabinet. Nothing. I groan in annoyance.

Then it hits me. He still has them. I look at the clock and it says 6. I sigh and  walk to his house which is right next store. I knock on the door frantically. It's killing me that I can't do one more.

He opens the door and gives me a confused look. "Give them back." I growl. He still looks confused but then his eyes widen. "No." He says sternly.

"They are mine." I shoot. "I'm not giving them back." "One." I plead.

"Nope." I push him out of the way and head to his room and look through it looking for that bag. "Your not going to find it." He smirks. I look under his bed and grab the bag. "Oh really?" I ask. His eyes widen and he comes after me and grabs me by the waist.

"Let go." I cry. "No." He replies. "Just one." I sob. He grabs the bag out of my hand and throws it out his window. "Tris there are other ways to solve problems then cutting." He says calmly.

"I need to do one more they aren't going to let me at the center." I cry. "And that is for the best, Tris."

I stand there with silent tears run down my cheeks. "I don't won't to go." I whisper looking at his dark ocean blue eyes. "Neither do I Tris, but it's for the best. You got the last spot for now. There one of the best in the country."

" I wish I didn't get that spot." I say clearer. He sighs and come closer to me and pulls my long sleeve up so you can my scars, he then says, " I wish...you didn't do this to yourself then you may wouldn't be going there."

" I still would." I say. "With my eating disorder."

He changes the subject and asks me "do u forgive me." Do I? I think I don't know he really hurt me. What do I say only Uriah believed me. But Four didn't really call me names he just stood there. "Uh-um-I-I don't know." I say shaking my head looking down.

"I'm really sorry about what I did." I can't take it I feel like I'll break down any minute. "Me too." I say and climb out the window. Idiot, idiot." Those words repeat in my head.

"Why are you so stupid!" A voice screams in the back of my head causing me to stop in my tracks. "Uh because if you haven't notice she's a fool." Another yells in my head.

"I left because I was going to break." I mumble. "Why you are really stupid aren't you no wonder you need help fatty." The first voice says.