Once long ago...
A person I can never let go...
He said such hurtful words...
Do you know that I loved you first?
I was so disturbed...
It was part of my curse...
To never let anyone near me...
The more they sought after me...
The more I punished myself internally...
I stared into his sorrowful eyes...
The tone of his voice was saying goodbye...
He went on to say...
And I love you still, even today...
I pushed him away...
Shut your mouth and watch what you say...
You love my best friend...
And we will just pretend...
That what you just said...
Never ever happened...
I felt tears rolling down my face...
He wiped one side and said...
I want you to know how I truly feel...
And I want to tell the world the real...
I love you first and I will love you last...
I love you today as I loved you in the past...
I need you to remember me...
If anything should ever happen to me...
Tell my family...
All about the real me...
The one that chased you around town like a love sick puppy...
Even when you denied me...
You still stood by me...
Always had my back on these dangerous streets...
Even though your best friend is my girl...
You know me better than anyone else in this world...
Even when I am confessing to you...
All you want to do...
Is make sure she does not get hurt, too...
And you wonder why I love you...
The things you do...
Shows your purity...
I guess you just can't see...
My heart sank in its deprived state...
That this truth he speaks, shall never take place...
I still remember the words I said then, til this day...
This you speak of to me, you shall never ever say...
Even though you think you believe this to be true...
I will do everything in my power and make sure no one will believe you...
But he dropped in my arms and wept so hard...
I could not believe what he said after this part...
He leaned in towards me and whispered...
Do you know that death is calling me...
It's coming for me...
You're the only one who will believe me...
Please don't ever forget me...
As we locked in a gaze so indescribable...
This was all unpredictable..
But what he was saying to me felt strangely believable...
This is why I am saying, all that I say, to you now...
If something or somehow...
Happens soon enough...
Make sure that you will never forget my love...
You will know that my heart has always been yours...
So embrace and endure...
And when you see me no more...
You will think of me of course...
So I embraced him once a little longer...
We wept together...
And I held him in my arms...
The pain in my heart...
Tears in our eyes...
Something just wasn't right..
I hated to see him cry...
As he begged me to hold him tight...
I kissed him good bye...
And that was the last time...
I saw him alive...
~He was shot brutally and died within the next two weeks of this night.
Rest in peace.. Aramis!!
