Like The Monster I Am ...

Intro

I'm worthless .

I don't belong .

I'm a disappointment .

I'm worthless .

I don't belong .

I'm a disappointment .

I stared straight outside of my window that has the grand view of the blank , tan , canvas that is the side of my neighbors house , repeating those words in my head .
Turning my music to full blast I finally had decided to give up , that there was nothing left , there was absolutely nothing left .

I took my last handful of a cocktail of medication I grabbed from my moms medicine cabinet and laid down and slowly felt like the pain was going floating away , with every blink the world was expanding around me , leaving me with no more worries in the world .

I finally took my last breath and felt the warm embrace of something I always thought I wanted . An eternal break from being unwanted ... being treated unfairly ... and an exit to the shit hole I call life .