i Tried, i Lied, i Died

PROLOGUE

I've Tried ! I've Tried Pretending That Everything's All Right . I've Tried Hiding My sorrows Behind My Smiles .. And What I've Learned Is When It Hurts So Much Inside, Your Heart Has Always A Way Of Showing It No Matter How Many Masks You Wear Outside :)

I've Lied ! I've Lied Because I Didn't Want Them To Know How Much It Hurts Deep Inside.. I've Lied Because It's My Way Of Convincing Myself That I'm Totally Fine..

And I Died ! I'm Dead Inside ! I Died Because No One Was There For Me When I Needed One To Cry On .. I Died Because No One Noticed The Pain I'm Going Through .. I Died Because I Can't Endure Any Longer .. I Died Because I'm Tired Of Loving From Afar ..

I'm Tired Of Watching Him Love Someone Else ..

I'm Tired Of Listening To His Litanies ..

I'm Tried Of Giving Him Advices ..

I'm Tired Of Being Happy For Them ..

I Want To Scream . I want To Cry .. I want To Tell Them I'm In Pain .. But Who Am I To Him Anyway ? Nothing But A Beloved Dying Sister ..

Yes ! I'm Inlove With My Brother , And Who Cares ?

And Yes! I'm Dying ! But Who Cares ? No one Knows ..

I Know I'm Wrong, But ,

Will Love Then Make Way For A Dying Person Like Me ?

Will Someone Come At Last And Notice My Presence ?

Will Someone Finally Show Me What Life Is ?

Because Me ? I'm Tired .. Because I Tried, I Lied, And I Just Died .........