9 days after birth
Me and Dane were aloud to go home 6 days ago, we had to stay a extra day because I really nauseous, I figured it was nerve, the nurses figured it was the stomach flu. But I was right cause the nausea did go away and it went away after I got home. Being a single mom is hard and getting up every single hour of the night is even worse, but little Dane makes it all worth it.
I walked over to the large crib that st in the corner if my bedroom for now. I picked Dane up ndcradled him as I looked into his beautiful blue eyes which he inherited from me. And his light blonde hair which he sadly inherited from Daniel. Like why couldn't he have inherited my Espresso coloured hair instead of Daniels shaggy corn coloured blonde hair. Lucky for me Danes hair is a dark blonde and not some buttery vegetables like hjs stupid, useles dad who couldn't care less about his well being. Well I couldn't care more.
I sat in a rocking chair and fed Dane. I daydreamed about Brian his shaggy brown hair and cripsy green eyes made me melt. His muscles gleaming in the hot sun. I felt awful about not calling him I have a lot going on but I don't want to make him feel like I'm avoiding him even though I totally am! I can't bare those eyes he makes me melt like butter in the beating sun. I knew that I needed to call him but not today when I'm more fit I will!
The next day
"See ya Arra"
"Bye Zaness"
I opened the door and walked inside my mom sat on the couch with Dane.
"Hey Arra how was the gym?"
"Great I've officially lost the baby weight!"
"Oh that's awesome hun congratulations!"
"Thanks"
"Here Arra I got to go" she said handing me Dane
"Okay bye mom!"
I put my sleeping boy in his crib and dialed Brians number.
"Hello?"
"Hey Brian it's Arra!"
"Oh hi?" he said sadly
"Listen Brian I have been so busy I had my baby, and I've been going to the gym trying to lose the baby weight and all I thought about the whole time was you, I wanted to go on a second date but I looked like a whale so I didn't want you to see me?"
"Arra you would look beautiful no matter what and I'm glad you called cause I have the perfect date planned out"
"Great pick me up at 4:00"
"Deal!"
"Great bye!"
"Bye Arra!"
I put on a floral sundress and curled my hair, I threw on flip flops and did my makeup. I heard Dane crying so I picked him up and walked outside I sat on the porch swing and cradled him to calm him down. I dialed Zanessas number.
"Hello?"
"Zaness its me"
"Hey Arra"
"Can you watch Dane for me I am going on a date with Brian!"
"Yeah of course... Arra and Brian sitting in a tree K-I..." I hung up before she could finish
Danes eyes shifted closed and I kissed his soft forhead my siter pulled in 5 minutes later.
"S-S-I-N-G first come love then comes marriage then comes Dane in a baby carriage!"
"Shut up!"
"Sorry!"
Brian pulled up that very moment. I kissed Dane on the forehead and ushered them inside. Brian took my arm and we got in his truck.
We got to our destination by what the looks of it seemed to be a small romantic cafe.
"So whats the babys name?" he said as we sat at a small table
"Dane!"
"Ah!"
"So... where is baby daddy?"
"I don't know he left me the night of the fire and I just haven't heard from him!"
"Oh sorry for asking... Is this your first child?"
"Yeah!"
"Do you want more in the future? "
"Definetly I want a little girl!"
"Ah... so have you ever been married before?"
"Nope you?"
"Yeah but... um... she passed away just shortly after our honeymoon" he choked
"How?"
"Fire!"
"Uhh... why didn't you save her?"
"Cause I wasn't a fireman and they wouldn't let me get to her!"
"Oh?"
"I got to see her after the fire when she was half gone, I stayed with her that whole night held her hand the whole time, but she died and she's the reason I became a fireman"
"What was her name?"
"Erica Elizabeth Munroe-Rider"
"So you're Brian Rider!"
"Yep... can we change the subject?"
"Yeah yeah of course... " I couldn't think of another topic
"So"
"So" I repeated
"I think you are really pretty Arra, and well I think that me and you should... should... date!"
"WHAT!!! Brian we just met I thought that you thought of me as a friend and not a replacement wife!!!" My heart burst after I said this my head spun I had just insulted someone who I cared about, and he was going ot hate me for this
"Oh so that's what you think?!"
"No Brian I didn't mean it like that!"
"Well that's how it came out!"
"But Brian I didn't mean for it to come out like that please just don't do this!"
"Arra I didn't do anything but fall for the most amazing girl left in the world, and that was my bad, so why do you care, it's not like you did anything but break my heart in half!"
"Brian stop!"
"Arra stop pretending like you care about me or my wife, when we both knw that you don't!"
"Brian!"
"Arra I'm sorry but this was a mistake, you are a mistake we are a mistake!"
"Brian calm down I care about you!!!!'
"LIES!!! I sthat all I can get from you Arra"
"I really do care about you"
"Umhm, well are you done speaking cause I want to go!"
"No Brian don't go just please give me another chance?"
"No Arra it's done and you can't do anything about it to change, have fun being a single mom!" and with that he walked away. He got in his car and drove away, he was my ride so now I have to walk home. I took off my shoes and started towards home. I walked in and there was my sister and Dane sleeping on the couch I put Dane in his crib and covered my sister with a blanket. Then I wnt to bed and cried myself to sleep, I am a single mom, and I hate it!
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