Lost j.b

Chapter 3

Justin's pov

"Baby, wake up.." I hear a soft voice calling my name. I open my eyes and see dark brown eyes watching me. There is that feeling again. Loving her so hard but also hating her. She is the reason why I am happy. She is the reason of my mistakes. She is the light in the dark. But also the dark side. It is very complicated. She is Selena.

When I first met her. She was that girl I bumped into in the supermarket. I remember it as it was yesterday. All her stuff fell on the ground and I helped her to pick everything up.
From that moment I fell in love with her. Love at first sight. She is my first love. Yes you heard it right, she is my first love. I will always love her.

Later when our relationship was going on for a while, I slowly saw that she was changing me. Believe it or not, I was some sort of nerd. I was that one guy who always had straight A's and was the perfect son. But that was al before she came into my life.

Selena did a pretty good job with changing me. She was driving me crazy. I went from the perfect son to the son you want to put in private school because of his bad behaviour. Everything went downhill since Selena had been in my life. She still is, sort of.
We hook up sometimes. I would say, friends with benefits.

"Babe what are you thinking about?" I hear her voice interuppting my thoughts. "Us." I simlpy say.  "Yes what about us?" She says with a hot voice while coming closer.
I was only thinking about the things you did to me, in a bad way.  But I better keep that for myself.

She slowly starts to kiss me in my neck, leaving small love bites. It was so good but it has to stop. I want to get up but she pushes me back.
There it is, her dominant side. At particular times I would love her dominant sides but not now.  "Selena get off." She looks at me with a confused expression. "What do you mean?"

I ignore her question and got up. I quickly walk to the shower and let the warm water run along my body. My thoughts come back about the dreams I have lately about a girl. I'm having them every week now, not everyday but like 3 times every week. They look so realistic but I know it's not real and that is disappointing.

Dark hair with green eyes, walking in the woods with me. Keep hearing her saying my name. Searching for something in the woods but I don't know what. She is beautiful. I don't know her but I hope that she is real. She is the perfect girl with a kind heart and good looks.

After 20 minutes I got out of the shower and see that Selena left. I don't really care.
I got ready and stepped into my car, to Macie's house.

Tre invited me to go party in the woods and stay there a few nights. Tre is a good friend of mine. I know him from the baseball team. He was team captain.

"Shit!" I need my cigarettes. I make a quick U-turn and drive to the nearest shop.  "Why isn't here any fucking shop?" My anger was starting to build up. Thank you Selena for making me an addict.

After 10 minutes, I found a shop and bought some cigarettes and some food. I don't really look foward for this trip. Teenagers alone in the woods? Partying? No, I'd rather stay home and go netflix, watch some good ol' movies. But I only do this for Tre.

I arrived at Macie's house and was greeted by a drunk Macie, was expecting that actually. "Yooo Justinnoo, come inn!" She slurred. Everyone in this house is already drunk. It would be the best if I drive.

I walked towards the kitchen and poured myself some soda. I walked back and was particularly doing nothing. Why not smoke a cigarette?
I lit it up and inhaled it deeply.

While smoking, I felt someone watching me. I turned my head and saw this girl. Exactly the same from my dreams. My mind was completely numb. I don't know what to think. She makes me nervous. She makes my heart beat faster. Sounds cliché but true.
I give her a small nod to greet her. She got shy I see.

I decide to walk to her. She got even more shy and was looking down.
"Hey." I said softly. Her haid was moving upwards and my eyes locked with hers.

Those green eyes. Exactly as in my dreams. The girl of my dreams.
"Hey." I hear her soft voice. An angelic voice. "I think we haven't met before?" I said.

"I am Justin." I took my hand out of my pocket and waited for her to shake my hand.
"I am Sara." Such a simple name but so beautiful. She took my hand and I felt a spark. I never had that with anyone.

"So you are going to drive? Since you're the only one sober?" She asked. She looked a bit concerned. Scared as if something is going to happen.
"Yes I am. Don't worry my lady, I'll drive safe." I said with a smile. She started to blush. Kinda cute.

"You want to sit in front with me? I'd like to get to know you better." I said with a wink. Hoping that she would say yes. "Ofcourse, why not?" She said.

Later that day we decided to go. Everyone sobered up a bit and were decent enough to go.

I unlocked the car and everyone got in. I opened the door for Sara and she blushed. I quickly hopped into the car and started to drive to the north of Canada.

"You really did that?" Sara said laughing. "Yes I did, and I am very proud of it!"  We were currently laughing about my awkward first kiss when I was in 6th grade. The girl whom I had my first kiss with was taller and older than me and I had to stand on a chair to reach her. So to make it worse, I kissed her and then I fell from the chair. Embarassing I know.

We have been driving for an hour now and I am really having fun with Sara. We told eachother all our awkward stories and our hobbies and stuff. We are really getting along, which I like.

We decided to make a quick stop. I grabbed some food, drinks and ofcourse cigarettes.

I saw Sara struggling with all of her food and quickly helped her. Same as with Selena. She looked up with her beautiful green eyes and thanked me.

Everyone got back in the car and we were back on track. Sara and I are currently jamming on Shawn Mendes. I don't know who he is but damn he has a great voice.

I thought that I've been hurt before
When no one's ever left me quite this sore
Your words cut deeper than a knife
Now I need someone to breath me back to life

This song sort of reminds me of my love for Selena. I love her but she only causes problems. She made me this monster who I am now. And that last sentence reminds me of Sara.
She can be the one to help me and become someone who I really want to be.

She has to help me because now, I am truly Lost.

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