Emmalei.
Such a pretty name... exotic too.
You're my sunshine, my only sunshine.
You make me happy... when skies are gray.
You'll never know, dear, how much I love you.
I hate it that I'm going to go away.
Today was Saturday, so we just hung at home. I felt especially horrible today (probably from being so stressed out) and you made loaded potato soup for me.
My favorite.
Your cooking is sickening (sometimes — not always!), yet so delicious.
When I'm gone, I'm going to miss your... let's say — interesting cooking skills.
Do you think I'll make it to Heaven? What if there is no Heaven?
What if I go to hell? I know for sure you're going to Heaven, and if I go to hell, it will be even worse without you.
Not even the fiery evilness of Satan can compare to life without you.
Yeah.... Let's hope I'm not going to hell.
I think I've been a good little boy. Have I?
Now that days are passing and my death is nearing, I find myself musing more and more about the afterlife. I think the thought of an afterlife is making me sick.
I am planning on going to church tomorrow. I haven't been in... a long time! I think it'll do me good to go and make peace with the Creator... before it's too late.
I feel bad now that I've given you so much grief about church, God, religion — the works. You've always been so passionate about spirituality...
And I've done nothing to support you with that.
I hope you'll forgive me for being the devil in your life. I really didn't mean to be selfish, but I guess I have been... and I haven't realized that...
I love you so much, Emmy, and I hate that I'm going to leave my beautiful sunshine here in this dark, sinful place.
When I'm gone, please be the sunshine in this dark, sinful place.
You, Emmalei, can make more of a difference than any of these goons that claim to be Christians.
When I'm gone, if you ever have the time, please pray for me.
Stay strong. Please.
Much, much love,
Cameron
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When I'm Gone
Cerita PendekAfter the death of her long-time boyfriend, Emmy Cole finds a box of letters addressed to her from him. The letters reveal more about Cameron than she imagined. They help her heal from the sudden loss. And to her, these letters are much better than...
