13'- H.S

twenty-three

Harry's POV- *you commented 360 times last chapter if we could do that again or even more I will be forever grateful!!!!  Love you all*

A week has passed since my fight with Autumn. A whole week she's spent avoiding me, and a whole week I've been regretting what I said.

I can't help that I get jealous. I want to protect Autumn, I want her all for myself. She's my Belle, my Autumn. No one else's.

Every time I see Autumn wearing her long sleeves, it hurts me inside to know the reason why she never shows her arms. I remember that day I found her crying. It destroyed me inside to know I couldn't help her. She looked so fragile in that moment, and I never want to see her like that again. She's been stronger, and I'd like to think it's because I've been helping her. Although, if anything she's probably stronger to protect herself from me.

I want nothing more than to treasure her, and hold her close. I want to be the reason behind her smile.

I'm ready to trust again, Riley destroyed my trust, Ryan destroyed Autumn's trust.

I'm tired of being alone. Living life alone is like living life only seeing black and white. Autumn brings that splash of colour to my life. She brings the light out of the darkness.

I have feelings for Autumn. I know I do. I've finally admitted that to myself, and I don't know why it's taken me so long to admit that. It took me almost a full year to admit my love for her.

I hate her, yet I love her. I hate that I love her. She makes me so happy, I need her in my life. I don't want to let her go. I want her to be the one I wake up next to in the morning, I want to be the one she comes to when she's excited, when she's sad I want to be the one to comfort her, I want to be the one I celebrate my birthdays with, I want to be the one she trusts with her life.

But I'm not.

Matthew is after her heart.

I want to be the one she gives her heart to.

She deserves someone who loves her for her. Someone who takes her as she is. Someone who can provide for her.

I want to be that person.

Yet, I always manage to fuck it up.

Every single time. I mess up more than make up. I need to change that. I want to change that. She means the world to me, and I'm not going to let someone steal her from me. She makes me happy, and I sure as hell won't let that go.

I'm not going to mess it up anymore. I need to put my jealousy aside and show Autumn I'm her better choice.

I can start with this new 'Harry' tonight. Movie night is tonight, and I'm sure Tori will drag her along.

*******

I walk into the dark mess hall, looking around for Autumn.

I spot Tori's bright blue head of hair, and Autumn next to her. I let out a sigh of relief and anticipation and slowly weave my way through the crowd over to them.

"Oh hey, Harry." Tori calls, holding a bag of popcorn.

"Hey, Tori, Autumn." I say slowly, looking only at Autumn.