The Stalker's Journal

Entry 8

Mom came back late today. I think she is worried about me.

She's been paying more attention to what I'm doing... which means I got in big trouble for staying home yesterday.

She's even been asking about my 'friends' I said I don't have friends though. I said I have a friend.

After that she said I should make more friend. But I don't need more friends. As long as I have one good friend that's ok.

But she didn't believe that. She had always been the life of the party, she didn't understand how it felt to be like me.

To be shy...to not particularly like people.

So I got mad at her. I don't know why I got so mad. I guess it came naturally... or maybe from genetics.

I didn't know my dad very well, but from what I've heard he was an angry person. A very angry person. He had also been shy like me, so I probably got most of my personality from him. But he wasn't stalkerish like me.

My mom was though.

Mother had always said that before dad loved her she had to follow him around... but she had never killed anyone for him.

And to be honest, I'm kinda disappointed in her for not killing anyone. She must not have loved dad as much as I love Anna.

I wonder if I told her what had happened with Rin... I wonder if she would understand.

She had gone through almost the same thing afterall.

Maybe I will tell her one day. But if I tell her, well... she won't live to see another day if I tell her.

I love my mother but I can't take any chances.

So I'm not gonna tell her...yet.

Maybe in a few years I will tell her. When she's old and I have children... I will tell her then... or maybe before that. I'm not sure yet.