The Stalker's Journal

Entry 13

(Zalla finally decided to write in his journal again!)

I'm not scared anymore.

I have no reason to be scared.

They stopped the investigation on who killed Rin. Now, I just need to be careful with Anna.

I finally...finally I was brave enough to keep her all to my self. No one, and I mean NO ONE can take her from me now. Because no one loves Anna as much as I love her.

And if anyone finds out about her...I will need to...get rid of them.

Hmm...yesterday I did something funny. At least I thought it was funny. It made Anna cry, but it was a lot of fun.

And I don't care if you don't think it's funny.

Because you aren't real.

You're just a voice in my head...

Right?

But your still my friend...my dear friend! Heheheheh! Ohhhhhhh my best friend!

.......

I can't believe I said that.

You're not real.

You're not alive.

You're not my friend.

You're my journal.

...

I wish you were alive though. If you were alive, I'm sure you would know how to comfort me...how to make me feel normal.

How to convince Anna to love me.

.....

Why doesn't she love me!?!? I'm not a bad person! I do everything I do for her! How could I be bad if I'm doing all of this for the one and only person I love!?!??!

I love her....I love her so much...if...if...if she doesn't love me maybe I should just...I should just...

I might do that.

Maybe...

But if I do that how would I get rid of her?

There would be to much evidence pointing towards me...

If I did that thing...I would have to do the same to myself.

I don't want to die though.

I don't have anything else to live for, but I want to live...

I'm...I'm...I'm so...

I'M SO PATHETIC!

I HATE MY LIFE!

But I love Anna.

She makes everything better...even if she doesn't realize it, she's the only thing keeping me from killing myself.

Maybe if I tell her that, she will love me.

I'm going to go see her now...