it's kind of weird to think that a month ago I thought he made me happy. I thought that's what it felt like to love someone, but I'm so stupid. I'm 14. I have barely been exposed to the world. but right now I like someone else, a lot. he's dirty blond, hazel eyes, tall (everyone is tall to me), but I don't care about that. he's a genuinely good person, he doesn't outcast me because I'm an atheist (he's religious), he doesn't get offended easy, we like the same jokes, but we're very different at the same time. he's more southern oriented it seems like, & I'm just
I don't know
me?
I'm not even sure who or what or why I am me.
I don't know what my purpose is. it could be so bitty, but it could also be tremendous. back to him. we'll call him Taylor, because that's what all my friends call him too. I feel like he's a lot more social than I am, because I am quite quiet sometimes. kinda seems like I don't shut up around him /: but I'm trying not to get too stuck because I don't even know if he likes me back. like he could secretly hate me for all I know LOL. anyway it's getting late, goodnight.
