Natural Disaster: Cracked

Natural Disaster Universe Final Chapter: Rain

I've stated this a couple of times on my Tumblr: I cannot continue this story. Due to extremely personal reasons, my heart just isn't in it to make this story end happily- or to slog through it at all. I guess it can be most easily explained as, well, the me who wrote Natural Disaster is not here anymore. I wish I could give you the story you guys deserve, but faking can only get me so far.

Basically, Cracked revealed that the issues between Launa and Avi were based almost exclusively in the fact that he wanted kids and she didn't. At the end of it all, when the two groups meet back up, they promise to try to make it work- to get their happy ending.

I hope that this last piece helps show what kind of relationship they have, and what consequences can come of a relationship built on life and death situations- but what hope there also is. I love you guys so much. Thank you for following the story to the very end. ♥

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Cracked.

She first heard it in the car with a friend, their mp3 player bringing the first few notes rumbling through the car's speakers, layered with the baritone voice on top.

The melody of their voices flowed together, the force of the bassline and beat so hard underneath that it felt like they could break the frame of the car. And there it was.

Tiny wisps of gold shaking from the speakers.

Launa felt as though she would vomit.

She had never wanted to see those again, to feel the way that voice slipped into her spinal cord and spread through her veins. She hadn't wanted to hear what this song was about. Not a single lyrical line, not a note nor beat. None of it. She wanted none of it.

And she was suddenly back in the passenger seat in a vehicle speeding across a desert highway, his laugh wrapping it's golden tendrils around her throat and squeezing till she couldn't breathe.

Gods, she hated it. She hated him.

She wanted to hate him.

They'd tried so hard to make things work. He had had his plan for his life set almost in cement, and that didn't sit well in her bones. They'd tried so hard. But what ultimately broke them- cracked everything apart- was fear. Her fear. He wanted so badly to make a career of the music he and the others made so flawlessly and to build a life and family with her.

A life with him and travelling around the world to all the places his music took him? That she could handle.

It was the thought of being pinned down to some inescapable promise, something that felt so coldly like a prison that sent her running.

That's all you do, isn't it?

You just run away. Run run run.

Run from everything.

And look what you did: "Your halo's gone and all I see is horns, and a heart that's still intact- but mine's cracked". Good job. You demonized yourself in the eyes of the best thing that happened to you.

Launa's eyes went distant, willing herself dead and cold. It was surprisingly easy anymore. Just shut everything off and nothing can hurt. No one can hurt you without your permission. Ice ice ice. Cold cold cold.

Freeze.

Nothing hurts.

Everything is dead.

She wasn't even sure she could feel her heart beat. She wondered if it was capable of movement anymore. Decided it would never be worth the risk again.