It Just Hurts

Part 12

Dear Avianna Merrie Horan,

You're going to grow up to be such a beautiful young lady. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything. I'm sorry for not being there anymore to kiss you goodnight, I'm sorry for not being there to wake you up and take you to school.  I'm sorry for not being there when you graduate. But when you do, just remember your mum and I are looking down at you and smiling. Congratulations in advance, dear beautiful daughter of mine.

I'm sorry I wont be there to walk you down the aisle during your wedding. Whoever you marry is fine with me. As long as he makes you happy. If he doesn't make you happy, ditch him. Never marry someone you will regret marrying later on in life. 

Avi, don't do what Daddy is about to do. It's very wrong. But I'm slowly falling into depression and I can't help it. Just remember whenever you down and you need encouragement, that Daddy and Mummy love you very much. We'll be looking down from Heaven. And if it's possible, we'll be your guardian angels. 

Please make your Aunty and Uncle as happy as you have made me. Keep on being your cheerful little self, Avianna. I sent you to their house because I didn't want you to wake up and find me.

I love you, and one day you shall see me again,

I'm sorry,

Love,

Daddy.

Dear boys,

I'm sorry. Please take care of Avianna. I'm sorry that I wont be in One Direction. Not a lot of fans will miss me anyway, ever since I started my twitter was full of haters. 

I will miss you all so much. But I couldn't keep away from my Princess. I miss her more than anyone in the world. Please bury me next to her. 

One day I shall see you all again. I'm sorry for lying. You guys are in the living room thinking that I don't feel good. Really, I'm not. You guys probably wondered why I said "I love you guys" before I went into my room. Well this is the reason why.

Please, forgive me. And take care of my family.

Harry, I'm giving Avianna to you and your wife. Please love her like she is your own daughter. I already know you do.

I wish you guys would come into the room, and stop me. But I know that is impossible. The pills are lying on my bedtable, and I'm shaking. I don't want to stop writing because than it would mean that I would be taking them.

Tell my mum that I love her. And Greg. Don't forget Greg. Tell my Princesses mum and dad that I love them too. Tell Avianna every night that I love her.

Please, do this for me as my parting wish. It no longer hurts now.

For the last time,

Goodbye, dear friends.

Dear Princess,

I'm coming. 

Love,

Niall James Horan

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Harry woke up and stretched his arms, yawning. "Wake up guys" he said slapping the other guys. Liam opened one eye and said, "Did you guys hear anything last night? I thought I heard crying but I wasn't sure." Louis quickly sat up, "I heard it too." Zayn looked at them and replied, "I feel like something isn't right." They looked at each other, than ran to Niall's room.

"WHERE IS HE?" Harry shouted He wasn't in the room. Liam ran to the closet and opened the door. 

Niall was on the floor, curled up in a ball with a book clenched in his fists. Liam screamed and violently shook his body, trying to make him wake up. Harry fell over on the floor in a faint. Louis screamed and punched a hole in the wall.

Zayn sat down on the bed, and stared into space. 

"NIALL WAKE UP!" Liam cried, "PLEASE. WAKE UP." He stopped as he touched Niall's still warm face. "I miss you." he whispered.

Louis grabbed his phone and called 911. "JUST GET OVER HERE." He burst into tears and threw the phone on the ground. 

One Direction.....Was no longer One Direction.

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"We've come here to mourn the loss of a brother and friend." The pastor recited. Avianna clung to her father's casket, as 6 men came to carry it out. Harry came and softly pulled her off of it. "DADDY!" She screamed into the room "DON'T GO!" 

Everyone in the room, family and friends, were drying their eyes. 

Avianna watched as they carried it out. Later they would have a private burial. Harry whispered into her ear, "I have something for you to read when everyone is gone." He handed her a small black notebook. She opened it up and gasped. 

It was the book.

The notebook her daddy said to never tell anyone about.

Avianna clung to the book. It was the only memory she had left of her daddy.

The world had lost an angel.