Dear Diary BOOK 1

Chapter One- Diary Entry # 1

Tuesday, December 3, 2004

Dear Diary,

Hello. My name is Sydney, Sydney Gray. And I, am really really shy. I haven't talked to anyone for aleast 3 years. I'm 14. I cut to. I just feel really depressed at times so I grab a razor and... you know... do it.

So, the reason why I have you as my diary is well... My mom was thinking that I got bored since I am not very social so, she got me you. She thinks this will keep me busy. And she might be right. So onto my life story...

When I was about 2, my biological parents didn't have the money to take care of me so they gave me away to my aunt and uncle( my mum and dad now). I used to live in the US but now I live in the UK. Life's not bad here but, I'm just not used to it, you know? 

So, I guess I should tell you what I look like. I have long, curly brown hair and I am skinny. I do have good grades, suprisingly. I don't really have any friends because I don't trust anybody except for my parents.

The reason why I don't trust anyone is.... it's actually a story about why I haven't talked to anyone(except my parents) for 3 years. 

I was going to my friend Amanda's house. When I got there, I saw her hanging out with the popular group of girls from our school. They started to taunt me and call me anorexic. At the time I did look abit anorexic but, I wasn't starving myself. Anyways, Amanda just stood there, motionless, doing nothing to help in any way. 

So that is the reason why I don't trust anybody at my school. Amanda tried to apologize after the incident but, I just ignored her. She doesn't know how much that hurt me. 

After awhile, Amanda and her family moved to california and I never spoke to her again. That was the end of our friendship. And probably the only one I will ever have.

And so after that, I started cutting. I'm not proud of it or anything but, I do it. I have scars all up and down my arm.  And I don't want anybody to see them so, thats why I don't wear tanktops or go swimming. 

Man, I can sure blab alot! Maybe that's because I ENJOY writing in you, diary. I haven't said anything happy for awhile so, maybe writing in you won't be so bad.

Love you so,

Sydney Grey.

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Hey guys! Sorry this update is so short! Anyways, this is kinda the way this story is gonna go. I will post a chapter of sydney living her life after each diary entry. I hope you guys liked this chapter and I might post more tomorrow or soon enough! 

Love u all, Vera xX