Lust Or Love

Reaching out

Chyna 's father Carl  in the picture.

~In the car~

I put on my seat belt and I put my bag down on the passenger seat . I decided I wanted to bump to some music .

~  white iverson  playing thru the car~

I start pulling out my drive way and bumping and  singing   to the music .

~8 minutes later~

I stop to make a right turn into the steak house parking lot when I was just about to turn in this black and grey 2013 Buick cuts me off and beats me to the turn.  I roll down my window and  yell out to the male driver as I beep my horn and say you fucking asshole.  I roll back up my window and make my way into the parking lot to pull into a spot not to far away from the person driving the Buick .

I finally get out and to my surprise the asshole who cut me off from my turn looks really familiar but I only got just a glance before I dropped my car keys on the ground I bent to get it and when I came back up the man was now looking at me completely .

Carl : Chyna wright is that you .

Chyna : daddy ( she said staring in disbelief )

Carl:  yes baby it's me

When I heard those words I went back to my 12 year old self and I ran to embrace my father because I needed to feel lover from my father and yes he had some explaining to do but I need his love at this moment .

He took me in a tight embrace and I felt safe something I haven't felt in a long time and all these emotions came crashing down on me and I break down and start crying . He's comforting me and letting me know he's sorry for not being there .

~ 3 mins~
After a long embrace from her dad she could finally understand what it felt like to be in your father's embrace and to be "daddy's little girl".

Carl : are you eating alone (he asked letting go of her )

Me: no I'm actually meeting with Damien

Carl: oh Damien how's everything going with you two .

Chyna : ( sighing heavy ) ummm daddy I have to tell you about all that's been going on with me

Carl : is something wrong sweetie .

Chyna: no daddy lets just exchange numbers and we will get together and talk some other time .

They exchanged numbers .

Carl : alright  sweetie it was nice seeing you he said while hugging her and kissing her cheek .

They both walk into the steak house and they go in separate directions . I look around and I see Damien sitting at a table on his phone .

I walk up to the table and Damien stands up to pull out my chair so I could sit .

Damien: wassup Chyna doll

Me:  nothing much you wouldn't believe who I ran into on my way in here.

Damien:  who

Me: my father (still in disbelief )

Damien: word

Me : yes it's so surreal but he has a lot of explaining to do .

Damien: damn well I don't think it makes sense  for me to meet him anymore since I'm not ya man no mo' .

Me: (rolling my eyes and in a sassy tone ) no it doesn't Damien .

Damien:  yup (he said sipping his drink)

Me: so why did you wanna meet me here anyways  ( I said looking at the menu)

Damien :  because I need to be around eyewitnesses so I am safe .

Me: (chuckling) shut up scrub 

Damien : (looked to his left and to his right)

Me: (rolling her eyes playfully) who  you looking for.

Damien: the nigga you got me fucked up with

Me: I'm pretty sure I was talking to you boo.

Damien:  nah I ain't no scrub ma.

Me:  (smiling at his attitude)

Damien:  ( 🙌🏾) ahh shit y'all she's smiling !!
Praise God

Me:  ( giggling) shut up you scrub I do smile

Damien: (putting his hands up in defense) Ight Ight well I guess I'm just happy to be the nigga to make you smile.

Me: (fighting off her blush) Damien can we start talking please ?

Damien: have you spoke to jasmine ?

Me: ( rolling her eyes)  no I haven't spoke to that bitch . why everybody asking me that ?

Damien:  that was your Bestfriend and not everybody knows what happened .

Me: you right

Damien: look Chyna it happened when I went over to get your shoes you left over there . She was playing music and she offered me a drink and  we were talking and she came onto me and one thing led to another and I'm sorry that I did it to you in the first place but, what I'm more sorry about is that it was your best friend .  It still doesn't make it right but if it was any body else it probably won't burn really bad . will you find it in your heart to forgive me ?

Me:  Damien I'm not ready to forgive you completely because we lost way more than our trust and relationship we lost our child due to this bullshit . (I said getting teary eyed)

Damien: damn I don't think I'll ever forgive myself for that shit right there.

Me: don't beat yourself up about it we can't change what happened . But I have one favor can you come with me to meet up with jasmine ?

Damien : yeah that's the least I can do when you tryna go ?

Me: (🤔) tonight ? 😈

Damien:  bet tonight but why you got that devilish ass smirk on ya face ?

Me: you just gonna have to wait and find that out don't you ?

~ stay tuned ~

What does Chyna have planned for jasmine?

How would you feel about your father just popping up 16 years later?

Should I update again tonight ?