Looking Past Death

Chapter Four

Chapter Four

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         I'm lain down on the old, rough mattress. Dr. Anderson thought that the thin sheet thrown across the bed,or as she likes to call it, a blanket, might be affecting my mental state. I don't really know where she came up with that idea.

          I let a silent tear escape my eye as i clutch my stomach s another rack of hunger pains shoot through me. i. curl up on my side and let out a involuntary shiver. all i can think about is how cold this place is. the lumpy mattress leaves my exposed skin scratchy. God, I hate it here! I think. I couldn't imagine a time when I was colder. I begin to think about my parents. They were always so nice to me, caring and loving. My mother always would braid my hair, help me pick out something nice to wear. She was  more than my mother, she was my best friend.

          I let my head fall back on the old mattress and listen for any sound that I can hear. I can hear the faint sounds of screams from the other patients, the light footfalls of peoples feet as they walk past my door. They aren't exactly soothing sounds but they are sounds non the less. Just as I am about to drift of into a peaceful ( well, as peaceful as it will get) I hear a creak in the floorboards near my bed. My head snaps over in the direction of the sound.  

          Its Ian , the last person that I was expecting to see. Considering he so cold heatedly left me all alone. But for the first time in a long while I actually don't want to be near him. He's just aggravating me.

          With a sigh I prop myself up on my elbows and give him a blank stare. " What do you want now, Ian?" I ask, completely annoyed. I can see hurt flash across his eyes, giving me a defeated look.

          " I'm sorry." He murmurs, his voice barely heard. "I should not have left you like that. I know that I'm your only company and it was wrong of me to leave. I know that I would not want to be left alone in here. " I look deep into his eyes, trying to see if his apology is true or not. I almost want to see that its a lie, just so I can continue to be mad at him. But instead I see sorrow and sincerity. I just cant stay mad at him, so I man up and and forgive him.

          "Fine," I mumble. " I'll forgive you if you promise me one thing. " Tell him, shrugging with a smile dancing on my lips. I can see the fake fear on his face as he goes over the possible sanario my mind could come us for the unknown if. With a gruff 'What' he finally asks what he has to do.

          I let out a dark chuckle, anticipating what I want him to do. " I want you to scare Ms. Smith. Like really scare her. Go all ape on her. I wanna see her cry." I smile at the thought of her terror. After all the pain and suffering that she has already caused me this is finally something that I could be happy about in my two years of misery.  but all those thoughts of happiness come crashing down when Ian looks at me with sadness written on his face.

          " Now Amelia, you know that I cant do that. Not every one can see me. " He tells me. I can see it in his eyes that he really dose not what to disappoint me. Even though that means a lot, its not enough.

          " But she dose not have to see  you! You can just throw a bunch of things around and freak her out. I don't even care if she cries! I just want her to have a taste of her own medicine. " I'm pleading now, which is not something that I often do. Its pathetic and weak and I would never be caught doing it. But this time I'm desperate.

          " Amelia- " He begins, but I cut him off,

          "Please. " I'm pathetic, I know it, but I just cant bring myself to stop talking.

           He looks hesitant, his eyes darting across the room, looking for something to distract me with. After a moment of not finding anything his eyes find mine, He looks torn between his decision. He stands there a while longer, Our eyes locked, before he finally looks down, giving me my answer. " I'll think about it. But no promises." He smiles, leaning his head to the side," Good enough?"

          "Good enough."

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Soooooo sorry for taking so long to update!

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