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Kiani |Scared

Warning!! Possibly Triggering! Sorta kinda!

Will
Most people aren't scared of this. Being gay. I am though. People don't think about the things I do. I'm scared of thinking that.

I'm just a scared boy in the world. Nothing more, nothing less. Seeing things with my perspective, it's not easy. I never said it would be.

I look over at my desk. 3 things sit on it. A picture of Jordan and I, pills, and my phone.

I walk over to take the pills. It's a full bottle, about 40 in it. I walk back to my bed with the pills.

I don't want to be scared anymore.

Jordan
Being scared for someone... It's worse than being scared for yourself. You are scared for them, then if something happens to them. It makes you scared as hell.

Will is scared, that makes me scared. I go to the bathroom and lock the door. I look at myself in the mirror. A see a scared boy, scared of being scared. I reach up to the self and take the razor.

I go back to the mirror with the razor. I look at my arms, scars of all my visits with the razor. I put the razor on my arm, without cutting.

I don't want to be scared anymore.

I put the razor down and go to Will's. I find him on the bed staring at a bottle of pills. "Will, can I tell you something?"

"Yeah. What?"

"I'm scared."

"Yeah.... Me too."

"What are you scared of?"

"Many things. I'm scared of doing a lot of things. But I can do this.." He said.

He went up to me and kissed me, so passionately I enjoyed so much. Will was my only reason not to be afraid. I hope I am his too.

"Are you still scared?"

"No."

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First gay One-shot had to be beloved Kiani although they broke up.... I think...

Pls don't scream if it's bad.

I haven't made a One-shot in a long time so I thought, "Why not make it Kiani!" Yeah, pretty lame authors note. Bye...