Bad Intentions

fourteen.

I immediately rushed to the bathroom and threw up. Last night was a crazy night and I don't even remember what happened and I have no clue where I am.

But I do know how I'm feeling. Mentally. Physically, I feel like shit, my head is pounding, I'm tired and hungover. Mentally, I'm angry. I feel like almost everything I do, I'm not good enough for people. All because of Normani. We're not even a couple, just a "hook-up."

When I left the bathroom, I furrowed my brows, noticing the fellow blonde headed girl sleeping on the couch. I ran my fingers through my hair and got closer to the girl, noticing purple and blue marks on her neck.

"No," I mumbled to myself shaking my head. "No, no, no." I repeated, searching for my phone. I picked it up off the floor and noticed missed calls from Normani.

"Dammit," I hissed scrolling through the missed calls and text messages.

She had left me a couple voicemails and I decided to listen to them.

"Hey Lauren, usually you pick my calls up right away. But I'm worried about you, you haven't came back. It's currently four in the morning. I hope you're alright. Please call me so I know you're okay. I really want to talk to you too. Alright, see you later."

I sighed and sat down on the couch feeling terrible. She sounded so worried about me, and I feel bad for being mad about what Jilly said.

I shook my head getting my out of my thoughts and put my shoes on. Jilly sat up and looked at me. "Where are you going?"

"Home." I said bluntly.

I grabbed my keys and headed to my car. Just when I thought I couldn't be anymore frustrated, my mother calls.

"Hey mom."

"Hey Lauren, you won't believe what I just heard on the radio."

"If it's something negative about me, I really don't want to hear it."

"It was your song."

"Oh."

"But I was calling to just see if you wanted to have dinner on Friday."

"Um, yeah, if I don't have anything scheduled."

"I cleared my schedule for you, the most you can do is clear yours for me."

"I've been doing nothing for two years straight, and now you finally want me to clear my schedule for you, when I've been available for the longest time?"

"Do you want to meet for dinner or not Lauren Michelle?"

"Fine. Listen, I gotta go."

"Alright, bye."

"Bye."

This had been the first time my mother called me in a while to meet for dinner. The last time she had called, she ended up canceling for a business meeting she had and I had been looking for to seeing her. So, honestly, I'm just wanting for her to call me the day of and say she can't make it.

I got to house and as soon as I stepped in, Normani jumped up. She came over towards me and hugged me. "Shit Lauren, you can't even call to me you're okay?" She said once she pulled away.

I met her gaze and immediately dropped my out of frustration. "My phone didn't have service." I lied.

She place her hands on my face and turned my head so I was looking at her. "You scared me." She said softly. "I'm glad you're okay." She smiled. She tried to kiss me, but I rejected it and pushed her off of me and headed towards the bedroom.