Am I Too Late?

Nobody's Perfect

I step off the bus and walk up the steps towards Blackwell, just wanting the day to be over. That or for a huge black hole to swallow me up so that I don't have to deal with anything. Walking to my room Kate stops me to talk.

"Hey Max! How did seeing Chloe go?"

"Oh hey Kate, um it didn't go so well. I think I'm going to leave her alone and not bother her again."

"What? Why? You can't do that Max, not after you told me everything and how much she means to you." She replied.

"It's not that simple Kate. Chloe is seeing someone else now..." I blink hard, trying to keep the tears away.

Kate looks shocked and gives me a hug. "I'm so sorry, I didn't know she was still with Rachel. I swear I would have told you if I'd known. Last I heard they were broken up."

Pulling away from the hug, I shrug my shoulders slightly. "Nothing I can do about it now. I'm gonna go relax for a while, I need to process everything. I'll talk to you later though Kate."

She gives me a smile and nods, "If you need anything or someone to talk to, I'm just down the hall. Bye Max."

I continue to my dorm and enter, closing the door behind me and sliding down to the floor. The tears no longer restrained, instead they fall like rain.

I'm not sure how long I sat there lost in my mind, the next thing I remember is my phone going off beside me on the floor. I reach down to grab it and notice 4 new messages. I sigh as I check them.

Mom: Hey Sweetie, I hope everything is going well. I just wanted to check in and let you know we miss you. Text me back when you get time. Love you.

Mom: Oh by the way I forgot to tell you that me and your father will be planning a trip down to see you within the next month. We can't wait to see you again!

Yeah things are just peachy mom, I think to myself. Making a mental note to reply back to her later.

Kate: Hey why don't you come to the Vortex Club party with me tonight? It'll be fun and can get your mind off of everything. Let me know.

Hmm I've heard about these parties, I wonder if they are as great as everyone claims. I type out a quick reply.

Max: Sure I guess that sounds okay. What time is it?

Clicking send I move on to the last message.

Warren: Max! I got tickets to the movie marathon this weekend at the drive-in and wanted to know if you wanna come with? It'll be awesome!

Max: Maybe another time Warren I can't this weekend. Why don't you ask Kate or Brooke if they want to go? Anyways I gotta go I'll talk to you later.

I finally get up from the floor and go lay on my couch staring up at the ceiling. How did my life end up like this? I wonder to myself. I use to have it all, friends, family, school, and the perfect girlfriend. Now I'm left with this mess of a life I call my own.

My phone buzzes, a text from Kate.

Kate: Great! I can't wait! It starts at 7.

Max: Alright cool, I'll come meet up at your dorm around 6:30. See you then.

Kate: See ya Max!

I set a alarm on my phone so I don't forget to get ready and go to Kate's room. I lay my phone down and sit up grabbing my guitar. Maybe playing and singing will help me feel better. Doesn't hurt to try at least.

I start strumming on the guitar waiting for the right song to come to me. Something that will help me express just how I feel. It finally comes to me and I start to play the right chords to Nobody's Perfect by Jessie J.

But I never meant to hurt you
I know it's time that I learnt to
Treat the people I love like I wanna be loved
This is a lesson learnt

I hate that I let you down
And I feel so bad about it
I guess karma comes back around
'Cause now I'm the one that's hurting, yeah
And I hate that I made you think
That the trust we have is broken
Don't tell me you can't forgive me
'Cause nobody's perfect
No, no, no, no, no, no, no, nobody's perfect, no

I'll be the first to admit I'm not perfect and I am going to give you the apology you deserve Chloe. I just have to work up the courage to face you again knowing you are hers now and no longer mine.