Your Forever Is All That I Need - Kellic/Boyxboy

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*KELLINS POV*

I wake up, by a lake. I don't know where I am, or what time it is. It's pretty dark and I can't see any sign of people.  I keep thinking about Vic, Kailey. My father. I'm crying again.

Why is every memory flooding back. I'm on tour, with Vic. I should be happy.

I still have scars from when I was younger. Because of my father. I was so sad, cutting was the only way of being away from everything. I promised Kailey I would never touch a blade again. But she isn't here to see. I run back to the bus, luckily the boys are still out. I search the entire bus for a sharpener, or a knife, anything.

I find a sharpener. I grab a screwdriver and watch as the screws fall to the ground. I run into the bathroom and turn on the shower and sit under the warm water. I promised, i would never touch a blade ever again, but I picked up the blade and swiped it across my wrist. I let out a little squeal as the water lashes down onto the fresh cuts. I forgot what it was like, to feel this worthless. The water was relaxing and I looked down as I saw the blood drain down the plug. With all these memories coming back to me, i knew i would break down. The worst memory of all was my Father. He was a horrible man, he never treated me or Kailee like he should have.

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*Kellin Flashback*

Kailey had just jumped, commited suicide, ended her life. I didnt know what to do, i couldnt cope without her, i couldnt be with out Dad by myself.

The only thing i can do is go back home, back to my drunken abusive dad.

'Kell-KELLIn! Get over hERE NOw!'

'Y-yes dad?'

'WherE the FuCK IS Kailee?!'

'Sh-shes...gone. Shes dead dad! She commited suicide, she jumped from the jersey bridge.. and i-'

Before i could say anything else, i see my dad's arm extend towards me, with a broken glass bottle in his hand.

I had to huge gashes down my left cheek, and i could feel the cold, damp blood run down my face and onto the floor.

'THIS IS Your fault KELLin! Maybe if, if yOU LOOked after her mOre!'

'My fault?  THIS WAS ME? IT WAS ALL ME. YEP.  I WAS THE ONE ABUSING HER WASNT I, I WAS THE ONE HER TREATED HER LIKE SHIT, WASNT I DAD. DONT YOU TRY TO BLAME THIS ON ME.'

'DONT YOU DARE SPEAK TO ME LIKE THAT YOU SON OF A BITCH.'

He got up and started hitting me in every place he could. He carried on for about an hour, screaming abuse at me and hitting or kicking me. When he finished, he went to get a drink, so now was my chance to get out.

I just about managed to pick myself up and walk out of the door. My body was broken, i was too weak to walk to the nearest hospital, so i did the next best thing. I rang an ambulance from the next street. It came within 5 minutes, and they got me to the hospital.

When they had finished fixing me up, they told me i had 4 broken ribs, a broken jaw, both my right leg and left arm were fractured in more than one place and a broken nose.

I was also covered in bruises and cuts, and they could tell they werent from this attack. 

They let me ret for an hour, but adter i did they had the police over. I told them everything. Including the fact that Kailee had comitted suicide because of it all, and thank god they arrested him and he was thrown into jail.

Finally, my life can start going right.

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I start screaming my sisters name, hitting the shower walls, pulling my hair and without warning Vic runs in and sees me sat on the shower floor.

I can't bear to look at him. I just sit with my head in my hands. He turns the shower off and sits next to me, but he doesn't say a word, he just sat next to me and put his arm around me. I lean on his shoulder, trying to hold the tears back, but I cant. I just break down.

'I'm sorry Vic.' I whisper to him.

I see him glance at  my wrist.

'It's ok Kel, tell me what's wrong. Is it Mike? Is It me? I heard you screaming your sisters name. I'm worried about you Kel.'

'It's everything Vic. My life is a mess, My sister is gone because of me. My father was a prick to her and I was on tour, living my life. I did nothing to help. Now she's gone. I don't know what to do, Vic. I don't know if I can carry on.'

'Kel. Don't say that! It wasn't your fault. Just think how happy and relieved she will be now. Away from your father. Please Kel, stay with me. You cant leave. You cant end it. Be strong. Just remember, im here for you.'

I manage to let out a smile

'Thanks Vic. I just want to know, what happened with you and Mike?'

I see his cut nose and lip. I can tell Mike did this to him.

'Oh this?' He says whilst wiping his bloody nose.

'I told Mike about me and you. He flipped. Got angry, I deserved it. I said something hurtful.  I told him I had no brother.'

'Vic, you didn't deserve it. Mike had no right to hit you.'

His arm stretches out and he grabs onto my hand. He helps me up on my feet and we walk out onto the bus. Luckily the boys are still out.

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I am not promoting self harm, or saying it is a way to cope with problems. Self harm is serious. I should know.