Football Wives

17

Gabriella

I just sat there frozen on the couch, not knowing what to do. How could Decker do that? He said he was sorry? Was he lying? He always lied. Obviously he was. I wanted to believe he was different. I really did. He just wanted to hurt me and it worked. This is a game to him. Was he going to do that to Stella and Megan? God I hope not, I would rather it just be me. I don't think anyone knew it was me, thank god. After what happened everyone just looked at each other. The whole cafeteria was silent, you could hear a pen drop. Everyone at my table went pale, I thought Jackson was going to explode. Owen pulled Leah out of there like the place was about to explode any second. I don't know why he did but he did. Elijah left soon after they left, I have no idea where he went though, I didn't ask. I couldn't. Stella and Connor went home. Stella was really shaken up. Stella, Megan, and I never talked about what happened to us in that hell hole. I guess we should have. But it's hard, for all of us. Stephan was the only one that stayed with Jackson and I, I'm sure he wanted to go check on Megan but he is keeping his distance. I don't know if he believes what Megan said or not. I also think he stayed for Jackson. I mean none of us could tell what was going on in his perfect head in that awful moment. He was so emotionless but full of emotion at the same time. If that makes any sense. Stephan left us after we came back to the apartment to go back to his apartment.

My head is killing me. I just keep replaying things in my head. Over and over again. I am honestly starting to feel dizzy or light headed. Isn't that the same thing? I don't know I can't think anymore. I lay back on the couch and pull Jackson's hoodie sleeve more up to my fingers, I rest my nose on his hoodie sleeve and close my eyes. I feel a tear drop fall from my eyes as I try to keep it together.

"Babe, I hate it when you cry," I hear Jackson's voice say. I don't open my eyes to see where he is. I also don't answer and that makes me cry harder. It's hard to keep it together sometimes.

"Babe," he says again I can feel his presence very close to me. I open my eye, they are blurry at first because of my tears. But I finally see clearly and he was kneeled in front of me with a look of concern all over his beautiful face. He has his Blue Devils cap on and it's on backwards the way I like it. He always looks so adorable with it on. He is also wearing a Blue Devils hoodie. He sure does love the team. Duh Gabby his is in the football team!

"I'm...sor....sorry," I stutter out. I am definitely ugly crying now and loudly. He holds me in that position and rubs my back.

"Don't say you're sorry. You have nothing to be sorry for," he says continuing rubbing my back.

"Why did he do this?" I ask Jackson. I am in the creek of his neck now. His jaw tightens at my question. I sound like a dying walrus.

"I don't know. I'm going to find out and when I do he is going to pay," he says with confidence. I freeze. No! Jackson can't go near him ...ever.

"No, you won't," I say and get up.

"Babe, I'm going to be okay," he tells me with reassurance. That's not going to work on me. Not today. Not ever.

"I know you're going to be okay. I know that because you aren't going to be near him," I say with a bit of anger.

"I can take care of myself," he says trying not to get angry. He thinks I am questioning his man hood. I'm not, I just want to keep him safe.

"I know that. For my peace of mind, please don't do anything. Please," I beg him.

"So I'm just so post to sit around and let my girlfriend get tortured and do nothing," he says crossing his arms and lifting his eyebrows.

"Yes," I say. He makes a good point. I mean if this was happening to him. I would never stop until I beat the life out of someone.

"Not going to happen. I won't look for answers but if he comes near you or does anything to you again, I will beat the living shit out of him," he says looking at me with his piercing blue eyes. I nod. I just hope Decker keeps his distance.

*****

My phone starting ringing right before I am about to cook dinner. Jackson was going to cook but I need something to keep my mind off things so I said I wanted to do it. Jackson says he is going to watch sports center but he hasn't kept his eyes off me since I got off the couch.

"Hello," I speak into my phone.

"Hey, I heard what happened at school. Gabby, I'm so sorry. Is there anything I can do?" She says. It's Megan. It's the first time I've talked to her in a week. I have tried calling her millions of times. I've texted her millions of times also but nothing. I went down stairs to her apartment but she didn't answer. I was starting to think she was dead.

"No, there isn't. I'm just glad to hear from you," I tell her.

"I know I'm sorry. I just needed some time," she says. I can tell she's sad. I don't understand why she did what she did but I will try.

"That's okay, I guess we all need it sometimes," I say and try to give her a small laugh. She laughs back.

"I'll be back on Monday, save me a seat at lunch," she says and hangs up. I think she hung up so fast was because she was about to cry. She never lets anyone she her break. I wish I was as strong as her. Maybe Monday I'll ask her how.

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