Erin [editing]

THREE| are you gay

I ran into my bathroom. I immediately felt sick to my stomach. It's probably from that fucking burger I ate in the car! It's making me feel like I have to vomit! They should've never make me eat that shit! I leaned over the toilet and stuck my fingers down my throat causing me to gag and vomit out all of that burger I ate today. My mouth tastes so disgusting now. I got the toothbrush and toothpaste and started to brush my teeth. Brushing my teeth felt delicious. It's been a while since I've done so.

I took my clothes off and started the complex shower. I got in and I immediately felt my bones relax. It's been so long since I've taken a hot shower. I got my loofah and washed myself clean with the girly smelling soap, I felt so amazing. My skin feels softer and I actually smell good for once. I got the shampoo and washed my hair. I smiled underneath the calm shower and conditioned my hair after rinsing out the shampoo. The shampoo and conditioner matched the soap I used. I grabbed the razor on the counter and the shaving cream. I refused to let the razor come in contact with my wrist, I won't let that happen. I shaved in all places necessary, and threw the razor in the bin.

After what felt like a lifetime, I got out the shower and wrapped my body in a towel and my hair. I suddenly remembered I don't have any pajamas.

"Shit," I growled.

What am I gonna do? Walk around naked? I sat on my bed unaware of what to do. I thought for a couple minutes. I should ask Louis because we probably fit the same thing, but he's hella scary. I would ask Liam but he's huge. Niall isn't an option really, he's so thin and an asshole. Harry's too tall so that's out of the question. I groaned and walked out the door. I looked over the balcony and saw the guys sitting watching TV. I walked downstairs as quietly as I could. When I got down there, they noticed me and walked up to me.

"Are you okay?" Harry asked.

"Yeah, it's just–"

"Are you hurt?" Liam asked.

"No, shut up. I don't have anything to wear," I said.

They oohed and looked between each other and then all eyes were on Louis. He rolled his eyes and marched upstairs. I followed him quickly and into his room. He went over to the left side of the room and into that closet. He handed me a pair of his sweatpants and a sweatshirt. I thanked him and looked around the room.

"You share this room," I noted. "Don't you?"

"It's none of your business," he mumbled.

"Whatever," I rolled my eyes.

He went back downstairs and I went back into my room. I changed into the pajamas and they actually fit. I looked into the mirror and smiled. I look so refreshed and so clean, it's different. It's been two years since I've looked somewhat decent. A knock at my open door interrupted my self admiration.

"What are you doing in here?" I asked.

It was Harry. He smiled and held his hands up in defense.

"I just came to tell you that we'll go shopping tomorrow for anything you'd like," he said.

"I don't need to go shopping," I said crossing my arms.

"Yeah," Harry said. "You do."

I huffed and sat on my bed. Harry sat on the other side of the bed.

"We're not bad people, Erin. You can trust us," Harry spoke.

"Do you share a room with Louis?" I suddenly asked.

"Yeah," he answered. "I do. I have no secrets from you and you shouldn't keep any from me. I will never lie to you and you won't to me."

"Deal," I nodded.

"Deal," Harry said.

"I have a question."

"Spit."

"Why do you share a room with a boy? You sleep in the same bed. Are you gay?" I asked.

"Where else is he going to sleep?" Harry asked with a chuckle.

I thought for a couple seconds and then answered. "I don't know."

"Exactly," Harry said. "Now go to sleep. We have a long day tomorrow."

"But I'm not sleepy," I groaned.

"Don't be such a baby," Harry laughed. "That nice woman at the adoption home gave me these pills for you. She only instructed me to give you two at night and two in the morning. What are they for?"

"For my anger problems that I don't have," I groaned dramatically.

"Well you do have to take them," Harry mocked.

He went downstairs and soon came back up with a glass of water and a protein bar. He sat it on the nightstand along with those stupid pills.

"Lights out love," he smiled. "Goodnight, Erin."

He closed my door and walked out of my room. I swallowed my pride and took the pills. I need those pills or I'd be worse than I am now, but they don't need to know that. I opened the protein bar, I'm starving. I ate the entire thing and suddenly felt the tiring activities and traveling get the best of me. I became sleepy, so I closed my eyes and let the sweet, peaceful darkness take over.

Tomorrows a long day.