These are my scars.
The scars from which I felt so many different emotions,
Anger,
Betrayal,
Hopelessness,
Sadness.
These are only some of the feelings,
that cost me these marks.
It doesn’t make sense now,
but I know it made sense then.
To cause my own self pain,
not once,
but over and over again,
Until I thought that I could no longer stop.
They think I never knew what they thought of me,
But I knew.
I read their faces like an open book,
I saw the true meaning behind their words,
I heard what they whispered.
I felt that I had no purpose,
That I was a waste of space,
A thing that nobody wanted ,
That nobody cared about.
So once again I felt utterly alone.
The feel of delicate salty drops running down my face,
Was no longer an unfamiliar feeling.
For it was something I felt like doing nearly every night.
I thought that this cruel pattern would never stop,
That it would just keep going on and on.
I finally felt like truly giving up.
Until one day something truly amazing happened,
I finally saw a faint glow of light,
In this tunnel of darkness.
A light that gave me hope,
A hope to keep me burning as bright as a star,
For so, so much longer.
For it was then,
That I saw that I was no longer truly alone.
For it was then,
When I saw that they do love me,
that they do care.
For it was then,
When I saw that I had been fighting for this long,
And that I was ready,
I could fight for so much longer.
For it was then,
When this faint glow of light grew,
Grew and blazed like the sun,
Giving off a light that covered every inch of me.
These are my scars,
The scars which prove that I truly am a fighter.
The scars to show that I found the light,
The light that would keep me burning.
The scars to show that I was once stuck,
Stuck in what seemed like a never ending tunnel of darkness.
These are the scars that show I survived.
These, are my Battle Scars.
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Okay so um this poem is dedicated to a close friend of mine.
Let's just say I got quite emotional whilst writing this poem.
Also if your reading this and your going through something similar, just know that your not alone and that there is always a light at the end of every dark tunnel, no matter how long it seems.
Just remember there is always at least one person that loves you and that you should never, and I mean never, stop fighting.
"Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light." - Albus Dumbledore
