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Diary Entry #3

Its Monday morning Blush!

This weekend a lot happened.

Talking about Saturday means talking about Raymond, as I spent half of my day with him.

Blush, he has this thing in him, you know. His presence soothes me. I feel lighter and I feel like I can talk to him.

That's what happened on Saturday. I got carried away by him and said something I've only said to you.

I don't regret saying it but I am afraid that he will see it as a passage to invade my life.

I don't want that.

I mean, that's not okay, right?

I haven't talked to anyone for two years about it and I can't do it now.

Or maybe it was him I was waiting for.

Maybe he's the one who will understand me.

God, I am confused!!

Guess I'll just go with the flow for now.

By the way, yesterday was dead boring.

Stace and I just lay on my bed half the day doing nothing and then the other half day we watched movies.

And TODAY, well, it's the day I hate the most.

Blush, I wish I could just curl up in my bed and not see anyone today.

Or I wish I could remove the day from the calendar.

Two years. Exact.

And I feel like it was just yesterday.

I don't know what to do.

I just hope the day ends fast without any trouble.

Fingers crossed.

Love,

Ashley S.