Just Breathe

The One and Only Part

"Sitting in one spot, doing absolutely nothing, frozen in time with only breaths and thoughts to keep you company. Empty but full at the same time. A world with only your imagination as your limit...Brilliant...Timeless..." Those words echo in my head as fresh breaths seep into my lungs. I sit in total silence, absent from the surface of the Earth. "What would you like to be when you're older?", "Do you have a plan for the future?"...So many questions yet I have no answer; all I can think about is this empty feeling inside me. Sad, gloomy, angry, enraged, empty, weak... Alone. Comes out of nowhere and doesn't stop. "I'm sorry, she has passed away.", "I'm so sorry, but he was hit by a car...He didn't make it." Shut up! It's not true! Leave me alone! They keep coming at me, attacking me in every vulnerable spot. It does't stop. It breaks me into pieces smaller than a grain of sand. And I'm just there; I don't know how to stop this, how to get out of this pain. My body a million snow flakes in the winter sunshine, glistening, screaming for help.*BAM*

"Hey, could you help me with the maths homework?"...Silence..."You okay? What happened?"

"I'm good, sorry, just tired. Let me go get it." That's all I can say because I know they won't understand. They never do. But it stops. Leaves me alone but only for now. It leaves the void it dug out of me; this empty feeling doesn't go away. I live with it, learn to deal with it... That's all I could ever do.. Just breathe.