It was about a month later since Troy and I had sex. I missed it. I called him but he wouldn't answer. Then I remembered he was on vacation and his parents didn't want him to call or text anybody. It tore me apart. I missed him and his penis.
"Mom I'm going out." I said
"Can you go grocery shopping for me for me?" She said
"Sure" I said as she gave me a small list of foods and some money
I was about to cry. Every time I saw people hugging. I didn't want to think about him. So I thought about PDA because it was much funnier, I suppose. I went to the store bought the shit that mom wanted and headed home.
The next day, I was preparing breakfast. I had strangest feeling, I was not feeling good. Then out I ran. I ran to the bathroom. I puked for about 30 minutes hoping it would stop. This happened day after day. My mom finally took me to the hospital after about a week or so. I was horrible. The doctor asked me if I had any signs of weakness or hot and cold flashes. Then I had thought maybe, pregnancy? I hoped not. I asked the doctor to have my mother go to the waiting room. I asked the doctor if she could take a pregnancy test. She said yes but I would have to have my mothers permission. I didn't want my mother to know I wanted one. So I told the doctor she said okay. Then she ran a few blood tests and urine tests. I bursted into tears after she left. I was so afraid. I waited a few minutes she came back, stunned faced, not good. She said I was pregnant. I cried for the next ten minutes, then my mother came in. Oh god, I thought. I told her and she just grabbed me in her arms. Not what I expected but good enough.
Troy was about to come back from vacation. I didn't know how to tell him though. I was scared and confused. So I called him.
"Hello?" He said
"Hey babe." I said shyly
"I missed you so much!" He said "You want to go out tonight?" He asked
"Sure" I said
He said he would come and pick me up. He got to my house. I came out in a nice little black dress. My pregnancy not showing to much.
"Hey" he said "Have you gotten bigger?" He said jokingly
Shit! Fuck! He noticed! I'm dead. He'll fucking kill me for being pregnant.
We got to Olive Garden. Fuck was I hungry. I basically drank water and milk all day. I ordered a big meal. It made me think that Troy thought I was a pig because I basically ate it in one bite.
"Damn girl!" He said "You must have been pretty fucking hungry!"
"Yeah" I said "Hey babe you're probably gonna notice sooner or later, so I'm gonna tell you now, okay, don't freak out just be calm. Okay?" I said freighted about what he might do
"Okay" he said calmly
"I'm pregnant" I said
He dropped his spoon. He got up and walked to the bathroom. Oh god, I thought. He came back and said "Let's go!, fucking now!"
He dropped me off at my house not saying any words to me. He sped off down the street. I went to the middle of the road hoping he'd come back. But he didn't.
"How'd it go?" My mother said
I didn't answer. I went to my room. I threw everything I could and laid down on the floor. I was depressed for a few days until I called Neeca. My best friend. She told me she was pregnant too and not to worry so much about it. Yeah let's not worry about getting pregnant because that's gonna solve the problem, I thought. I tried calling Troy but he wouldn't answer so I gave up. Then a few days later he called me. I was so happy!
"Hey!" I said
"There's something I should tell you, Vida. You're defiantly going to hate me after this. But here goes nothing." He said
I was so fucking mad! I hung up. Here's what he told me. He fucking took off the condom! Why the fuck would he do that! I told him I didn't plan on pregnancy, but that flew over his fucking head I guess.
