why wait

continue if you wish

i remember when i lost my mind. i let go of my emotions, i was out of touch. but it wasnt that i didnt know enough, its that i knew too much. i hope that you are having the time of your life. but there is something i want to say to you, who is reading this journal:

i am the diamond that was left in the dust, im the future you lost in the past, you wouldnt know if i disappeared. i found the light you shut inside, and now im gone. thank god you left me behind, couldnt change me if you tried. am i still not good enough? im sorry for the way my life turned out, im sorry for the smile i wore back then. im sorry for being alive.... but it wasnt all my fault.but, now im gone. you feel better? reading this and knowing it was you who pushed me off that bridge. no, you didnt physically, but you contributed to the pain that existed in my life. i was only eight! i had a bad day. you try waking up to an empty house. you try being alone with no friends. see how you feel at then end of the day. that still gave you sick bastards no reason to lie and pretend that you were my friends. i hope youre reading this and know that i fucking hate you, and that i finally did what you always told me to do, i died in the lake. feel free to continue reading if you want to remember what you monsters did next.....