He had been woken by revelers returning to their rooms; laughing, joking and banging doors. Now laying in the darkness Sheldon let his mind wander. He had kept a tight rein on his emotions for the past 12 months but now, with the ceremony over, he felt the despair creeping back. If only she had listened that last time he had been to visit her…
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He banged on her door for the 15th time, he knew she was in there and he knew she was angry.OK maybe going to her office every day with flowers had been a mistake, but surely she would see he was sorry for the things he had said and wanted to make peace.And yes maybe leaving work early so he could follow her home had been a little over protective, although he still thought Penny and Bernadette were wrong to call him a stalker; he was concerned that's all.But today was different. He had news. He had made sure he had stayed away this past week, well far enough away that she couldn't see him at least. He needed to see her now though, and she wouldn't answer the door."Amy please!" He called, his ear pressed against the wood trying to detect where exactly she was in the apartment. "I have news. Big news!"Nothing.He sunk down, his back resting against the door frame. He couldn't tell her through the door it was too important. He couldn't email or call; she had changed her numbers and email address.He stayed sitting on the floor for over an hour. He could hear Amy inside, talking on the phone to Penny, playing her harp, cooking her dinner. It was only when the shaft of light under the door went out did he realise she had gone to bed and had no intention of talking to him at all that evening.Making his way slowly to the building entrance Sheldon was not surprised to see Leonard waiting in his car."Come on buddy, get in.""She told you to come get me." His voice resigned to the facts before him."No, she told Penny you were outside her door banging and wouldn't leave.""I needed to talk to her Leonard. She won't listen.""Sheldon you have tried saying sorry I know. But telling a woman she is getting old and her eggs will soon be useless and you are her only hope is well pretty tactless even for you.""It came out wrong." He snapped defensively. "Leonard I really need to talk to her.""She doesn't want to hear it Sheldon, at least not tonight. Give her a little space. She is hardy likely to miss your 'unique charm' if you are constantly there hounding her.""You think she will miss me if I leave her alone?""Maybe buddy, maybe."Nodding slowly Sheldon sunk back and closed his eyes. "I wanted to tell her first.""Tell her what? "Leonard asked curiously, realising Sheldon wasn't talking about just apologising now."Nothing. It doesn't matter."Shrugging Leonard drove the rest of the way home in silence. Sheldon went straight to his room and closed the door. Letting Penny know they were back Leonard sat in his chair with a sigh. He was worried about Sheldon. Amy breaking up had been hard on him. It was as if her taking that step back had finally shown Sheldon just how important she was to him and in his desperate bid to keep her close he had only succeeded in driving her further away. Fully expecting to return home from work to an apartment full of cats the next day Leonard called Mary Cooper.In his room Sheldon pulled out his journal. If he couldn't tell Amy he wouldn't tell anyone. The only record of the news he had received would be documented for his journal alone.
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Shelly? Shelly are you awake?" The banging on his bedroom door forced Sheldon back into the present and climbing out of bed he moved to let his mother in."Morning sugar." Mary reached up to kiss her sons cheek. "I have been talking to Missy and she said she can meet us at the airport. Now all of yesterday's hoopla is over though I thought we could spend our last few hours doing a little sight-seeing.""I have to pack." Sheldon said quietly, not sure he had the energy for a tour of every church Mary had been able to scout out from the many tourist guides she had brought with her."But Shelly you have seen nothing of the area, why I heard there was a quaint little chapel not far from here where we could go watch nuns sing."Rolling his eyes out of sight of his mother Sheldon replied as calmly as he could, "You go. I will finish my packing and then maybe meet you for lunch before we go to the airport."Waiting until his mother had left Sheldon reached for his phone. He hit the button for Caltech but was greeted by the answer machine. Realising he had not factored in the time difference Sheldon threw the phone onto the bed. Showering and changing he returned to the bedroom and began to pack. He needed to go back to work. It was this morning's reminiscing they made him realise just how much work had saved him. Now, if he had to go back to Texas it would mean questions.He knew they meant well, like his friends. But he couldn't avoid Meemaw like he could Leonard; he could not fool Missy as he did Penny and he sure as shooting couldn't use defensive insults on his mother as he had done to Amy.Why had he not just been honest?This one question had circled his brain for the past year. Why had he not just told her he loved her and given her the time she needed.Now he would have to tell Meemaw she could have back the ring she had saved for him. It was in his case ready as he had anticipated this move by his mother. Also he had not wanted to leave it unattended in the apartment. If Penny had found it then the questions would have taken a whole new turn and he wasn't ready to face those yet. No, he needed to convince Gablehauser that it was in everyone's best interests for him to return to work straight away. He could continue his research, move forward. All his clothes now stowed in his case Sheldon moved it to the door and, ensuring he had his room key, went off in search of breakfast. While his mother was safely touring the religious hot-spots of the city Sheldon decided he would pay a quick visit to the science and technology museum. He had visited the Nobel museum on his arrival and had already purchased gifts for Leonard, Howard and Raj. He was pretty sure he would not find a suitable gift for Penny in any museum he cared to visit anyway so he would let his mother pick her something out at the airport. Satisfied his plan would at least kill the time until he met his mother Sheldon made his way slowly out of the hotel.73"Ames hi, it's only me. Bernie and I are going for lunch as the men are paint balling. You wanna join us and Skype lunch date?""Hi bestie. I don't know, I'm actually kind of busy and -""Come on Amy. We haven't spoken with you properly in weeks.""Yes well in case you hadn't noticed I live in New York at the moment so it kind of makes it hard to arrange girl's nights!""Skype us! Come on, just for a little while. Please!" Bernie pleaded in the background.Knowing she was not going to be able to come up with a convincing argument to put her friends off Amy agreed. Bargaining a 20 minute conversation Amy settled herself on the sofa and pulled the laptop onto her lap. She knew from this angle all her friends would see is her head, shoulders and the back of the sofa.What they wouldn't see is the near empty apartment and boxes of her unpacked belongings.Smiling as the 2 excited faces of her friends appeared on the screen before her Amy waved. "Hi!""Hey Ames, look at you in your fancy New York pad, will you give us a tour?" Penny grinned looking at Amy expectantly"Oh, next time." Amy smiled with a grin she hoped was convincing, "when I have more time I'll give you the grand tour but for now just fill me in on what you guys have been up too."She sat back with a smile as between them Penny and Bernadette described the goings on back in Pasadena. How Raj and Emily seemed to be getting serious with Emily now a regular at Tuesday evening dinners at the cheesecake factory."So Howie said he text you. Do you not fancy dating my husband for the evening?" Bernie grinned.Amy smiled. "Sorry, I should have replied. I am not sure I will be in New York then.""What? Why not? I thought your job was going well." Penny frowned."Well my study finishes soon. I don't know where I will be.""Amy come home. It's not the same here without you.""Maybe." Amy said reluctant to let her friends know just how desperately she wished she was there with them now. "I don't know.""Look Ames if it's Sheldon, he is different now. Calmer.""Yes well now he has achieved what he dreamed of I am sure he won't have time to worry about me any more anyway, but it doesn't change how I feel about him.""And how do you feel?" Penny asked gently a little surprised Amy was even willing to mention Sheldon's name seeing as she had avoided it so carefully in the past.Amy shrugged."You watched didn't you?" Bernadette probed. Realising seeing Sheldon receive his award could have affected Amy and could be the cause of her sudden willingness to talk."Yes I saw it. He looked good. Well. And I am pleased for him. I know how he dreamed of that prize. But if I come back now I feel I will be moving backwards.""So make changes, move apartments or jobs or something, but don't let something that happened in the past keep you away, please Amy. We miss you. We all do."Nodding, moved by the pleas of her friends Amy promised to think about it before she said goodbye and closed her laptop. Looking round she knew it was only a matter of time until she went home. And LA was home. She had done well in her research here sure but she didn't socialise, had made no friends and spent any free time she was not working with her nose buried in a book while she tried desperately not to think about what could have been. Sighing she went to make herself some tea. Yes she would go back. But when she did things would be different.73"And she said she might be coming home? Howard askedYes. But she said it felt like she was going backwards. I think she is scared.Of Sheldon? Surely she knows he would never ever hurt her, sure he is crazy but not like that.He did stalk her! Raj pointed out.No he didn't Leonard snapped. Not really he just wanted her to listen. I get why she didn't want too, I know he handled things badly.Badly! Leonard he had her hanging off his every word for years. She would defend him when no-one else would, put up with every one of his stupid demands and what did she get in return, a few chaste kisses and a night on the floor under a blanket fort. Hardly from here to eternity! Then when she asked for a little time to consider what she wanted from her life he goes into psycho mode and won't leave her alone.Leonard sighed. So many of the points Bernadette made were indisputable yet Leonard knew Sheldon had seriously never intended hurting Amy. Maybe if she comes back it means she is ready to talk to him again.Well if she is he had better have a better method of handling it than he did before! Penny's fierce tone and defensive body language told Leonard this could be a bumpy ride for everyone!
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