Us

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by antisocialdorito3
by antisocialdorito3
                                    
                                              //Trigger warning//~ an anxiety attack takes place in the third paragraph below,  just to be safe ~
                          Jacks POV 
                              "So does this mean that you're my... partner?" I ask, feeling weird. I can't imagine myself dating a man, but if that man is Mark, maybe I can make an exception. I'm not sure how to feel about my sexuality. Then again, I don't have to use a label. 
     I notice he's lost in thought, probably the same thought as me. We sit in silence for about twenty minutes before he breaks it abruptly, startling me. "I suppose we are. You're my boyfriend and I am yours. Is that okay with you?" I nod slowly. 
     I think about how my family will react. My fans... My friends... By far my family though. Will they accept it? Will they accept Mark? Me? Or would they cut me out? Exclude me? I begin panicking. My chest starts to hurt, and I begin gasping, and shaking. Mark grabs me, and I push him away, I feel like the room is closing in on me. 
      "Sean, it's okay. Breathe." I flinch from his hands coming towards me. "I'm not gonna grab you," he says raising his hands as if he's surrendering. "Just count to three and take a deep breath. Hold it for three seconds. Let them get slower." I do as he says, and I begin to calm down. I step forward, still shaky, and I let him pull me into a hug. I feel myself calming at the sound of his breathing. He slowly tightens his hold, like I'm his comfort source, a teddy bear. 
     I hug him back, and when I do, I begin crying. Mark loosens his hold, but I squeeze him tighter and he understands that I don't want him to let go. He pulls me to lie in bed with him, and I continue to cry, until I fall asleep.

                          Marks POV 
                               We lie in bed for the rest of the day. He cried for quite a long time, I look at the clock and realized he'd cried for two hours. He'd just fallen asleep under fifteen minutes ago. So I let myself sleep, too, next to my new partner. 

~Time Skip~
                               I wake up, feeling my arms still around Sean. I feel stiff, so we must have not moved from this position since we'd slept. I look at the clock and it reads, 7:49 P.M. Which means we slept for over six hours, yet he's still asleep. I get up, write a note saying, 

Sean, 
     I went to get some food, seeing as we haven't eaten since yesterday morning. I'll be back soon, maybe before you wake up. No worries. Text me when you wake up. 
                          -M
                               I smile and add a little heart next to my signature. Walking out the door, I turn, and look at him. He looks peaceful and for a moment I want to climb back in bed and hold him and not let go. Sighing, I turn and leave to get something to eat. 

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                          I'm not sure, but this chapter may be shorter. Sorry, I haven't slept in quite a while. Again, please let me know if you would like me to continue this and leave suggestions for future chapters. Maybe I will delete it and start over... Let me know what you think! (: