A NO SPECIAL GIRL STORY (AN INFINITE FANFIC)

ANSGS - EPISODE 51

EPISODE 51

*** WOOHYUN'S POV***

When Ji Ae left, I was devastated. I never knew a person can mean that much. I never knew a girl could mean so much that losing her felt like losing a part of me.

I could have understand that she has her life to live and dreams to pursue if she only didn't break up with me. I was confident we can make long distance relationship work so the harder I thought of our break up, the more I was convinced that her dreams were just her excuse to leave me. And so, I did not follow her even if it took everything in me.

Maybe I became used to receiving love from people that being devoid of it from a single person felt too unbearable. I was shattered to a thousand sharp pieces that when people tried to collect me, they ended being the ones wounded. Well, except for Sungkyu hyung because never did he try to collect me.

Sungkyu hyung and I did not clicked when we first met. I have a strong ego I cannot stand being ordered around that when he did, I threw a fist for I did not think that being the group leader entitled him of leading me. Yet, who would believe that we could be the best of friends after that?

Sungkyu saw me at those lowest points and even if he did nothing, it meant everything to me. It meant that he understood the heartbreak I was going through that he gave me the space I need to get through it. When he would sit with me and say nothing at all, it was more than I could have asked of him. Sungkyu hyung gave me the most silent and soothing comfort I needed. It was more than enough.

And then, he would tell me that he blackmailed Ji Ae?

'Why?, I wanted to ask him but the last thing I needed was another reason to punch him again.

I have to find Ji Ae.

*** SUNGKYU'S POV***

Woohyun head on out the door. A flood of relief washed over me thinking that he'd go looking for Ji Ae. I hope he'd find her safe and win her back. Hopefully, everything between them will fall back into place.

"Why did you lie, hyung?" Dongwoo asked, offering me a hand to stand up.

The members hovered around me with sad and disapproving expressions. I know, I know. I shouldn't have taken all the blame. I should have told Woohyun the truth that our manager was the mastermind of all these but I just don't have the courage to tell him that. He'd surely terminate his contract out of rage and that will be the end of us.

"It's for the best" I told them.

'Maybe not', my subconscious told me.

"Hyung!" Sungjong protested

I refused to take Dongwoo's hand and stood on my own, "I want you to respect the decision I made. The dispute is just between the two of us, don't get involved. Understand?" I said in an authoritative tone.

When they did not respond, I repeat, "Do you understand?"

Sungyeol shook his head, "Hyung, you don't have to take all the blame. Let's get this over and come clean! I know Woohyun would understand. Let's just tell him that Hyo Min blackmailed Ji Ae and she threatened us!"

I huffed, "Oh yeah? Then, let's also tell him that not only our manager conspired with Hyo Min but also tried to hide Ji Ae in Japan. I just found that out after hiring an investigator. I wanted to know how Ji Ae lost her memories. Apparently, she was involved in a car accident the day of her flight to London and several months after, she flew to Japan with hyung pretending to be her uncle."

All the members fell silent, absorbing my excuse.

"I'm sure as hell that when Woohyun find that out, he'd no longer have the guts to work in his company and that's it. It's over." I continued

The truth is, I'm not scared about him leaving the company because really, we can leave all together and transfer to another management. What I am scared of is that he would no longer want to be an Infinite member because he'd feel betrayed.

Dongwoo looked disgusted, "I thought we'd stop being cowards?" he paused, waiting for an answer but then continued, "Woohyun deserves to know the truth even if it means we'll lose him in the process."

"I miss the Woohyun I know two years ago" I whispered

I looked down the floor, afraid they would see my tears falling, "The truth is, I want to see his old self back but that will be impossible when he learned that we all kept the truth from him for two years. I don't want him to know that we, his brothers he trusted the most, betrayed him. I know he might never forgive me for that lie but at least, it can keep our group from breaking apart. I am trying to be a good leader just for once!"

"...but hyung---" Sungjong began

"I'm the leader so I get to decide what's best for the group"

And with that, the discussion was over.

I just felt pathetic for crying in front of them because I thought I was strong to hold it together.

*** JI AE'S POV ***

When I opened my eyes, all I could see was Woohyun oppa. I wanted to see him in afterlife but not this look on his face. I wanted to see him smiling at me but he looked so worried and apologetic and sad.

I guess I was wrong when I thought I would go to heaven when I die, because really, I don't. Perhaps, someone as heartless as me don't deserve that.

I closed my eyes.

"Ji Ae. Ji Ae~ah"

And it was all it took me to open my eyes again to see Woohyun smiling. A thankful smile.

A tear dropped on my cheeks. Woohyun oppa is crying. It's not the kind of angry tears he shed earlier. It was as bad but not regretful. Woohyun oppa, finally, cried tears of joy.

"You're alive, Ji Ae~ah" he breathed a sigh of relief and held me closer to his chest. I could smell leaves, wood and sweat on his shirt.

I am alive? I survived?

"Oppa, mianhae (I'm sorry)"

I don't know what I feel sorry for or which. I think I have a lot I don't know where to start so I just cried on his shirt.

"No. I'm sorry Ji Ae~ah. I'm sorry for not believing in you. I'm sorry for not trusting you. I'm sorry I did stop and follow you. I'm sorry I did not understand---"

I interrupted him with a peck on his lips.

"Ji Ae~ah, I am sorry I did not see that you are in pain too"

No. I am not in pain as much as he is. Woohyun oppa carried alone that pain for two years. How painful must it be for him?

"Are you still mad at me, oppa?"

He shook his head, "I was mad at myself. Ji Ae~ah, I really did not mean what I said earlier at the beach, believe me. All these years, I've been waking up praying and wishing to see you again. I never wanted to lose sight of you, Ji Ae"

I was taken aback all I could tell him is, "I love you, Woohyun oppa"

"I love you too, Ji Ae"

And there, in the middle of nowhere, we kissed. I cannot remember all the kisses we've shared in the past or even the kiss we shared earlier at the beach... because all of those are far from the kiss we're having at the moment.

We kissed like the past two years did not really happen and even if it did, we kissed like we're making up to those lost kisses we could have shared if we were just together. We kissed like we missed each other. We kissed like we really love each other. And we really do.

We kissed until we're out of breath.