A Tear in My Heart

Chapter Four

                  

Dear diary,

Today is the day that Nathaniël and I are meeting again. I am going to travel to court with Tilly to see him. We have been writing letters for a month now and my feelings have not changed since I last seen him. I cannot believe that I am going to see him again. After that night I started thinking about my future together with Nathaniël. The part that I think about the most is the part of him finding out what I am. Can he handle it? Is he going to leave me when he finds out? Those questions are circling through my head. But I know that I need to live in the now and not think about the future. Sure it is okay to fantasise about it but you also need to stay in the here and now.

The whole town knows about Nathaniël and me. They all love the idea that one of their people is in a relationship with prince of England. But there are some people that do not approve our relationship. They do not want me to have a relationship with a human, let alone the crown prince. If I were to marry him and become queen, all the people of England would notice that I am not one of them. That could endanger our people. I think that will never happen but they are not so sure about that. I do not want to think about that, I only want to think about next month when I am going to court and see him, hold him, kiss him. I can only dream of the things that could happen for now until we meet again.

Love,                                                             

Freyah

'Good morning sunshine.' With an energetic voice I open the curtness so that the sunlight wakes up Tilly. 'Good morning to you too.' She say irritated and turns to her side. 'You know what day it is? It is the day that we are going to court!' I am way more enthusiastic than Tilly because I cannot wait to leave my town and travel to court where Nathaniël is waiting for me. 'Get up I want to leave in about an hour.' I say to Tilly and I start to dress up and pack some clothes to bring with me. I put on a long navy blue dress with a floral bodes and for my hair I put in a floral beaded headband. I walk into my kitchen and make breakfast for Tilly and me.

'Tilly breakfast is ready.' I yell when breakfast is ready. 'Yes I am here, I packed everything and ready to go after breakfast.' She says as she sits down beside me at the dinner table. After we eat our breakfast we put on our cloaks and called Clayton to get our luggage. 'Thanks Clayton.' I say when he carried our luggage to out carriage.

We say goodbye to our friends and step into the carriage that will take us to court. 'Ready to go ladies?' Clayton asks us. 'Yes we are ready, Clayton.' Clayton gives the charioteer the sign that we are ready to go he steps in and sits next to me since he is coming with us to court. 'Howling do you plan to be staying with us, Clayton?' I ask him curiously. 'Until you are able to survive without me by your side.' I start staring out of the window thanking about Nathaniël and the things that are waiting for me there. The journey would take two hours, almost 2 hours of silence. Every mile that we are closer to cur I get more and more nervous. I look out of the window and notice a castle coming closer and closer. 'We are almost here!' I say enthusiastic. I finally feel the carriage stop. At this moment I feel the butterflies very strongly in my stomach. The carriage door opens and I hold my breath. My head goes back to that day when my life changed. After that day he is the only thing that I can and want

to think about. Tilly stops out of the carriage first. Than Clayton and then me. I step out, my eyes searching for Nathaniël and he there he is, standing there with a big smile on his face. We run into each other's arms, holding each other close. I never want to let him go. 'I have missed you so much' He whispers into my ear. 'I have missed you too.' We pull away from each other and I start greeting King Edward and Queen Charlotte. 'Good afternoon my lord, my lady.' I say with a bow. 'Stand up my dear, we welcome you with a great pleasure. We arranged a special feast to welcome you and your friends.' She says with a friendly smile. We walk inside and Nathaniël shows me the chambers where Clayton, Tilly and I are staying, everyone in their own chamber of course. 'And this is your chamber.' He opens the door of the chamber. 'Wow it is beautiful and big.' As we walk in he closes the door. 'So you like it?' 'I do not like it, I love it.' He walks towards me and kisses me very passionate. This kiss brings me back to that night that we first kissed. And yet again it feels like we are in our own little world. Then in the middle of our kiss, the door opens and a servant walks in. 'I am so sorry to bother you my prince but you father is asking for you and your mother is asking for Freyah.' She says with a bow and walks away. 'Duty calls, I will bring you to my mother.' We walk through the hall ways of the castle hand in hand. I am so happy that I have a permanent smile on my face. As he stops at his mother's chamber he kisses me goodbye. 'I will see you soon my love.' And so he leaves. I knock on the door and here the queen say 'Come in.' 'Hello my lady, you asked for me?' I say when I walk in. 'Yes my dear come in and sit down please.' She says and points to a chair on the other side of her desk where she sits. 'I want to get to know my sons first love.' I sit down, not sure what and if I need to say something. 'So let's talk then, first I want to say that I know what you are. I will not say it out loud because that will bring you and your friends in danger. So what are your intentions with my son?' she asks me polite. 'I uh I love your son my lady. Him and I are soul mates, I can feel it. He is the first man that I have ever loved, that I have ever felt something with that I have never have felt.' I say, a bit unsure if this is the good answer to that question. 'I believe you. That month after that day he was only thinking about you, it is the only thing he can think about when you are not here. I think it is good that you came. Now he can focus on his studies knowing that his love is here, safe. How have you experienced that month my dear?' I am slightly blushing about the things that she says about Nathaniël. 'That month he was and is the only thing I can think about. We wrote letters but it was not the same as being in each other's company. I love to be here at court, to be able to see him every day.' 'We are glad to have you here, but I must warn you. If my son wants to marry you, you need to tell him what you are or he will find out himself. We cannot afford our people questioning that you are not one of us. They will kill you and my family and your people will have nowhere to go, you understand.' I am a bit shocked about what she tells me. It is true, there are some major risks having a relationship with the crown prince and not be human but it is a risk that I am willing to take. 'I understand my lady.' 'Please call me Charlotte and you are dismissed. Go and get ready for tonight. You and your friends are the special guests for tonight.' She says with a smile, I bow and leave for my chambers. I walk straight to Tilly's room to get ready together and to tell her all about my little chat with the Queen. I knock on her door but no one is answering. 'Tilly, are you there? It is me, Freyah, Can you please open the door.' I am about to open the door myself when suddenly some walks out of Tilly's chamber. It is not Tilly but Clayton who is walking out of her chamber, not seeking any eye contact. I walk in and see Tilly laying on her bed. 'What happened?' I say with curiously and sit next to her on her bed. 'Non thing.' 'Then why are you smiling? Did you guys-' Before I could finish she throwers a pillow in my face and says 'Yes we did, now stop asking me about it.' We both laugh. 'I would love to stop asking questions about it but I am really curious so talk. Since when do you fancy him?' 'Since a few months now, came into my room to ask me if everything was okay. He came close to me and we just started kissing each other. Now you know so can we get ready for tonight?' Tilly looked at me with blushes on her cheek. I am so happy for her, although I would have never guessed that she and Clayton would end up with each other. 'Yes let's get ready for tonight!'

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