Am I Serious?-ON HOLD

...♥I Can't Do This♥...

Cindy's Engagement Ring :-P

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"Zack?" I stared at him. His white dress shirt had the sleeves rolled up showing his biceps. He looked nervous yet happy.

"Olive. I don't know this might be a bit too early. But I do know that I'm ready to spend the rest of my life with you." I laughed nervously as I wiped away the stray tears. I wasn't ready for this at all. "I love you Cindy Oliver. I love every flaw about you. I know you hate cliché but I really don't give two fucks. I fucking love you, you may can beat my ass any day any time but underneath all of that you'll always be my badass gangleader."

My breath hitched in my throat when I saw him pull out the black box. Was I ready for this? Did I actually want to give up my freedom for love? Did I love Arch? Of course I did. But he's going to Miami Friday to continue his boxing career. I don't want to be in the way of all that? Plus did I really want to start a family?

"Arc-"

"Olive, I'm willing to wait forever for you. But just answer this one question." he released a shaky breath before continuing "Will you marry me, move to Miami with me?"

"Arch, I'-"

"You don't have to answer me now. I know its soon and a lot to take in I get that. But just think about it. Please?" I closed my eyes wanting to shoot something. I pointed the gun at Arch, wanting so badly to tell him I can't but I want to.

"Cindy? What are you doing?" I took the safety off, opening my eyes to see Zack staring at me. I just need one answer.

"Do you trust me?" I whispered but I know Zack heard me. I ran my free hand through my hair as Zack visibly gulped. "Just.........just don't move."

"Cindy I-"

"You said you'd wait for me. But what I really want to know is if you'd still love me if I shot you right now. If I was ever placed in the situation where I had to shoot you, would you still love me the same?" I asked as the tears came. I never wanted to put him in this situation but I just have to know. With my life style and his, it just doesn't seem to fit. I don't want him to get hurt but I need to know if he trusts me or not. If he says he loves me and would wait for me then he must trust me and have hope in me that I'd love him no matter what and that I'd always be there for him. So I gave him the ultimate test.

"I-i-i-i "

"Just stop. If you don't just say no. If you do say yes." I demanded my emotions running wild. I know that I would shoot him wouldn't hesitation. I was made that way. To be ruthless emotionless, cold, a negotiator and be the perfect undercover agent. I learnt from the best after all. I was told never to have friends or love someone. People will always use it against you in this world. But what happens when the badass gangleader falls in love and just be rash. Zack will end up dead and I couldn't live with myself.

"Yes." I was cut off from my train of thoughts by Zack's voice.

"What'd you say?"

"I said yes Olive." he let out a sigh running his hand through his hair. "I would die for you Olive. I'm not playing when I say this. I would love you even if you fucked my best friend and I walked in on you."