I feel like nobody actually loves me. And I'm pretty sure I'm everybody's second choice. I have nobody to turn to. Even the very good friends that I have would choose me over somebody else. My family hates me and some would say they love me but talk bullshit about me behind my back. There's nobody that cares, nobody that loves, nobody that makes me feel special. Even in love I'm hopeless. Every boy that I have my eyes on likes somebody else. But maybe someone out there cares? But who am I kidding? Even I hate myself. So who would love me? Omg I'm so pathetic right now. Nobody likes a pathetic person. Why should I keep trying? I would still die in the end.
