Heartache

Heartache | Chapter 9

 The following day my dad dropped me off at school before he went to the law-firm he works at. I walked through the halls feeling light when I felt someone touch my shoulder so I turn around to see you. 

 You had bags under your eyes and looked like death.

 "Can we talk? Please." you sounded so desperate so I agreed and we went to the back of the school where I flashbacked to yesterday when you two had a fight. 

 "Do you know?" he asked me and I felt my heart drop to my stomach. 

Daisy must have told him that I know about their "affair" so I looked away from his eyes and nodded at him. I heard him let out a shaky breath and he took two of my hands into his so it made me look into his eyes that held sadness. 

 "I'm sorry, please don't leave me." he whispered and a tear feel out of my eye. 

 "Will you let her go for me?" I ask him and I was scared to hear his answer, he didn't answer me so it made my heart sink lower and tears spring out of my eyes in a continuing rhythm. It hurt, I admit. 

 It was like his silence held an answer and it's no. He can't let her go for me, for the girl who was with him for two years. 

 I sobbed and he looked helpless. It was like a re-run from yesterday, I was pulled away then someone socked someone. This time You let Ken punch you which made a bruise come on your left cheek bone and Ken pulled me behind him. 

 It was heart warming how he was protective of me even though we only know each other for three and a half days. It proves that strangers can be your best friend. 

 "Leave her alone," was all Ken said before he pulled me away from the scene.

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 Lunch came and we're sitting next to each other while Ken is at my other side. He was my body guard for the whole day and it was nice because I needed comfort and every time I see you I always wanted to cry and cry and cry. 

 You pulled my hand and held on to it while I pulled it away and face away from you. Everyone in our table noticed my coldness for you and were genuinely curious of what's happening between us. Even I don't know.

 I remembered what dad had said and I sighed, "Brandon, can we talk?" I ask you and I could feel everyone's curiosity and I bet they already know what I've got to say because "can we talk" is a famous line for "I'm going to give up". 

 So you stood up and I followed but I stopped Ken from following after us because I wanted our talk private and between the two of us.

We were in the hall, no one was there and I sighed, "Brandon, I- I'm breaking up with you." I said and my voice shook at the last word and you looked heartbroken. 

 "Please, Natalia, don't give up on us." you pleaded and I shook my head.

 "I can't put myself into this torture about knowing you cheating behind my back with my step sister and not being guilty about it. Even if you stop your fling with Daisy it would never be the same, you've put me in pain and torture and I can't bare that, remembering what you've done to me. 

 "I tried telling myself over and over that I love you and I do but I can't look at our future where maybe you'll have more flings than Daisy because if you can cheat on me now, you can cheat on me again in the future and I can't bare that because I'm aching, I'm numb, I can't be always like this. 

 "The girl you thought that was naive enough to not discover your lies and your flings. I can't do this anymore, Brandon. It's like a charade that you always win and I always lose. I'm hurt right now and there's nothing you can do to take my pain away. I'm sorry, It's over." I tell you, wiping the stray tears that my eyes gave. 

 You looked broken too, you cried. 

 I know you loved me but while in our relationship I knew you fell out of love that's why you looked for someone to fill in the hole that I did. Now I know that you don't really love me because if you do, you wouldn't do this. 

 "Goodbye, Brandon." 

I walked back in the cafeteria and everyone was silent. I don't know if they heard our conversation which I doubt because we weren't that loud but the cafeteria's walls are thin so if there's people doing IT in the class next to the cafeteria, we'll hear. 

 So I ducked my head, embarrassed and I collected my stuff. I would go home early, dad wouldn't mind me cutting right? He would understand. 

 You walked in the cafeteria and I just walked past you because now, we're strangers. Strangers that have no relation to each other anymore.