Heartache

Heartache | Chapter 11

 I pulled my suitcase with me, entering the airport with my dad. I didn't go to school yesterday even though it will be my last day there but I didn't care.  

While we waited for our flight to be called I looked around. My dad took care of my school and the paper work we'll be needing for me to transfer to a school there in California so we're good. I thought about the text if I would send it now so I sent it. 

 To: Brandon
 From: Natalia 

 Hey, I know I might be the least person you wanted to get a text from because I broke up with you but I know that you understand why. I can't be with you anymore, it hurts. The past two years we've been together was great but I think it's time for us to separate.

 I'm going to California, for good, at least. I can't stay and see you everyday of my life, I can't see you with Daisy and be happy while you still left my heart in pain. I can't stand that.

It hurt me when I first found out about you two and it was funny because it was the week after I introduced you to each other. Maybe Daisy did have something I didn't and that was you were looking for. I think that loving you was a good experience and a lesson that I can love myself and I don't need your love because I'm surrounded with the love of my friends and dad that I was too blinded by your "love" for me to actually see it. 

 I should of broke it off as soon as I found out so that it wouldn't have costed me so much pain. 

I'm sending you this text right now it's because it's a farewell letter. Like I said, I'm going to California to start a new life, to leave the memories we made here and it stays here. I don't want to bring extra baggage with me because it would only tire me. 

 I hope you understand. I guess we aren't made for each other.

 Remember what I've said that I believe in soul mates and destiny? Fate? I still believe in those but I guess we aren't destined for each other. 

 Love comes and goes and when it doesn't go, hold on to it. I hope you remember that. When you find the girl that you'll surely love, don't let go of her. Love her more than you loved me and cherish her because you wouldn't know if she'll slip out of your fingers and onto someone else's arms. 

 I still love you and that's another reason why I'm leaving. Because I still love you, I need to let go and learn to not love you because it's hurting the both of us.

 Brandon, we aren't meant for each other. This break up, is the cause of both our fault because you must have wanted something from me that I can't give to you and I'm sorry for that. I know you, you must be blaming yourself for our breakup so stop doing that because it's both our faults.

 This is hard for the both of us but I know that we will find other people. Brandon, thank you for loving me,Thank you for caring for me, thank you for holding on until you can, and thank you for hurting me. 

 I could only take the heartache but not the heartbreak. 

 Goodbye, Brandon. 

 Love, Nat. 

 Then my flight was called so my father took my suitcase and we went to go on board. I looked back and a little part hope you ran after me but It was just a silly fantasy. 

 This was really it. 

 Goodbye.