Used to Be (Kavi)

Friends...

Kirstie's POV:

After he left, all I could do was cry. A number of hours later I woke up. I must have cried myself to sleep... I knew I really fucked up, but I had no idea how badly. I myself am shocked at the mess I've made. Avi's tearful words played on a loop in my head: 'You broke my heart... You broke my heart...'. Now my heart is broken. Avi Kaplan is the single sweetest man I know, and one of the best friends I've ever had.

My mind starts taking me back to when I met Jeremy, and when I started to blow him off. What was so appealing about Jeremy that made me want to ditch Avi so completely like that? How did I really feel about Avi, when I knew he had a crush on me? I never gave myself the chance to even think about Avi as more than a friend. So why did I kiss him like that? Was Avi right? Was I just horny?

No! I need a break. I pull out my laptop and go to Instagram. I'm scrolling and scrolling through things I've already seen. For some reason I search the hashtag 'Pentatonix' to see if the fans have posted anything worth liking. After more scrolling and scrolling there is one photo that catches my eye immediately. A portrait of Avi. It's absolutely amazing. I swear sometimes the talent these kids have is un-fair! I can't stop looking at it. It's gorgeous. It's not just the drawing that's gorgeous. It's Avi... I've always thought of him as being a handsome man... but I seem to be drooling at the moment.

I need to snap out of this. I've already made enough of a mess, I've already hurt someone I care a lot about. The last thing I need is to convince myself and Avi that I have feelings for him when I might not! 'You broke my heart...' My whole body aches thinking about it all again.

The next morning...

I hardly slept at all last night. The guilt... it's eating at me. I only need the chance to apologize. I consider that maybe texting Avi the next day would be too soon so I put it off and try to busy myself with other things. I walk Olaf, tidy up my apartment a bit, I go out for a drive and run some errands. Before I can convince myself otherwise I turn into Avi's apartment complex. What are you doing Kirst, this isn't smart. I see Avi's car so he must be home. I take out my phone and decide to call first.

*RING RING RING RING*

"Hey it's Avi-"

"Ugh!" I moan. He didn't pick up. Again, before thinking I step out of the car and proceed up to his apartment. It's been a while but I still remember which one is his. I make it to his door and I contemplate just going home, but alas... I knock.

"Oh! Hey, Kirst." He says when he comes to the door. He looks nervous but manages a small smile.

"Hey... Are you busy?" I ask, "It's ok if you are! I just wanted to stop by-"

"No! Come in!" he allows me to pass him. We turn to face each other.

"Listen, Avi.."

"Look, Kirst!" We interrupt each other with a nervous laugh. "I'm sorry Kirst!" He says suddenly "I should not have blown up at you like that! We could have talked about everything."

"What? No, You have no reason to be sorry!" I say.

"Let's sit." he suggests, we move to his couch.

"Look," I sigh "I've been the shittiest friend in the world to you. I made a huge mistake and you've only ever been wonderful to me... I'm so sorry. I can't say how sorry I am enough... I was very wrong!" I felt a huge weight lift up off of me after letting all of that out. Now I only needed his forgiveness.

"Can I ask you something?" he asked

"Yea"

"...Why did you kiss me like that?" he asked. I still didn't have the answer to that question.

"Honestly... I don't know... All I know is that I saw you and I couldn't help myself... and that, it felt good." we both laughed at that. "Can I ask you something?"

"Sure."

"Did you mean it when you said... you loved me?" I asked, he silently nodded "Again I am so sorry... for everything!" Avi looked at his feet... I could tell he was uncomfortable.

"Kirst, can we just... start over?" he asked. "Can we just forget about the past two years and be friends?"

"Yes! Please, that would be great!" I said. I feel 100% better now. We both smiled and stood up from the couch. "Friends?" I offered my hand for him to shake on it.

"Friends!" he opened his arms and scooped me into one of his famous Avi hugs. I jokingly squeezed him tighter and we both shared a laugh. I backed up a bit still holding each other just to look at his face. I caught his eyes drift down to my lips... and I couldn't help but glance at his. I don't know how long we stayed like that but it must have been too long... We both suddenly released each other and just laughed again.

"Friends." he said

"Friends."

A/N: Thanks for reading this short Kavi story. Please refer to my NEW book called Just friends which will be a continuation of this story!!