Used to Be (Kavi)

A Rush of Emotions

Avi's POV:

New Message from: Kirstie <3

It had been God knows how long since I last received even a text from Kirstie. So I was surprised to see her name pop up on my phone this afternoon.

Kirstie<3: Hey, Are you busy?

ME: No, whats up?

Kirstie<3: Can we meet up for a bit?

I thought for a moment. Something in me felt like this wasn't a good idea. I thought back to what happened in the dressing room 2 days ago. She wouldn't tell me why but she was a complete mess. She tried to ensure me that she was okay but her worry worn face said otherwise. Holding her, even in that short moment reminded me that I still cared about her, regardless of how hurt I still was from years ago, she was still my friend, and I wanted her to be ok.

ME: Sure, you home?

Kirstie<3: Yup!

ME: I'm on my way.

Kirstie<3: Thank you!

At Kirstie's Place

"Hey!" I greeted her with a smile. She gave a small smirk.

"Hey," she said quietly as she waved me in the doorway.

"Sorry It took me so long, the traffic on the main roads is crazy for a-MMMHH" My back was pressed up against the front door suddenly. Kirstie's face was pressed up against mine. Kissing me... she was kissing... ME!

Kirstie's POV:

I felt like my body was being controlled by someone else. Everything within me was screaming NO, STOP. Still, I felt as if I had no choice but to grab him and capture his lips. I didn't know where this had come from. I didn't know what I was doing or why, and what would happen next? He kissed back at first opening his mouth to allow my tongue in with his own. His body remained still as I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled on some of the long hair from under his beanie. I moved both of my hands to the sides of his face. I wanted badly to be as close to his body as I could get myself. Before I could stop myself I let a moan escape my throat. I prayed he hadn't noticed.I have never felt this desperate for anything in my life. I felt his two strong hands grip my shoulders and yank me back.

"WHAT ARE YOU DOING?" He shouted, shaking me slightly. He had a wild look on his face and he breathed heavily. I opened my mouth but no sound came out. I didn't know what to say, I didn't know where to start. I didn't even know how to answer that question: What was I doing?

"Jeremy broke up with me!" came spilling out of my mouth before I could think.

"What?" he dropped his arms and just stared at me. His face twisted a bit and he looked back at me with a disgusted face. "Is that why you called me over here today?" he asked "'Cause you're horny?"

"What? No, Avi I'm sorry!"

"No, Save it, Kit!" he spat, I hated when he was angry, he was genuinely scary, "Am I just supposed to be your shoulder to cry on when it's convenient for you?" he began pacing back and forth, "Lemme' guess we're friends now? Is that it?"

"We've always been friends!" even I knew that wasn't true.

"You've only spent the last two years completely ignoring me! FOR WHAT? Did you get what you wanted?"

"Avi please just listen, I know I was wrong! I know I've been an awful friend, but I made a mistake."

"I LOVED YOU!" he shouted at me.

We just stared at each other. While maybe I knew he had a crush on me once upon a time, I forgot that I had always ignored the possibilities of deeper feelings.

"You broke my heart..." He whispered. I began to cry, what sort of evil person was I?

"Avi-" I choked out.

"If you thought you could call me, cause you needed someone there for you right now... You'd be right." he looked up at me, tears in his eyes. "I still be there for you... because I still love you... But uhh... Just not today." he whispered. He moved back towards the door and opened it. "Umm... Just call me..." I caught more tears streaming down the side of his face.

He turned and left.