wedding goes wrong

part 5

Niall's P.O.V

"Niall get out" I can't believe she's asking me to go out, how can i leave ? i love her.

"please,Al" i begged her , i was crying by now.

"Niall please get out" she was desperate, I could see it in her eyes , she was shocked , I can understand,but it still broke my heart to pieces.
With out any further thinking , I nodded in disbelief and went out, leaving behind me the love of my life.

"Niall, what happened? Why are you crying?" Zayn asked concerned.

"She doesn't fell the way I do , she doesn't love me " I was so desperate for her to love me , I thought that she might actually give this up and leave him for me , but why would she? I could never make her laugh and smile the way he does, she's better off with him.

"Whaaat? I'm sorry mate , I really thought that she loves you, I was certain of that" Zayn's words hurt even more than expected, I know he means well but he's not helping , it hurts that she doesn't love me.

"It's OK Zayn, I know you did, so did I . but I wish if you haven't made me tell her, now I've lost her forever." I choked on my own words , I never thought that it would come this far , that I would lose her. At least I had her as a friend and now I lost her for good. She probably hates me.
How could I be so stupid, what should I do now?
I can't stay here! I can't see her be Wed to someone else. And I don't want to cause her more pain than I already have.

"I have to go" I mumbled under my breath and Zayns eyes widened.

"What? What do you mean , you have to go , you can't just leave?" His voice was cool , its almost like he understood how I was feeling and he is fine with me going but as a friend  he's obliged to at least try to stop me . even though we both know that's not going to happen.

"Zayn I have to, I can't stay here, if I stayed here god knows what will happen. I would never be capable on seeing her become his forever , it will kill me seeing them telling to each other their vows , being announced as husband and wife , I can't I just can't . I can't see her be Wed to someone else it would take the strength in me not to object and ruin her day . I could never do that to her " I was out of breath at the end from crying , I'm such an idiot , why didn't I tell her before ? God, how stupid can i be ? But now that I know she doesn't love me, I have to leave.

"5minutes, till the music starts. Lets go people we have I wedding to start" the annoying  wedding planner said ,  she seems nice but I can't stop the feeling I just despise her.

"Niall, where is Alison? She has to walk down the aisle in 10minutes " Amber asked me

"She's in the room" my voice was so low that it came out as a whisper , I didn't think she heard me, but she did. She nodded after thanking me and then she left to call Al.

"This is my time to leave" I stated .

"If she asked where you are, what should I tell her ?" Zayn asked . and I realized that I haven't thought about it , what if she wants me here after all. Should I stay? No I shouldn't, its better if I leave, so I don't ruin her wedding. She probably hates me anyway . why stay and see her get married to that asshole , who doesn't deserve her , I deserve her, i should be the one she's getting married to not that dick, she sh........"

"What the hell are you thinking about?" Zayn cut me off, thank god he did or I would've came up with an idea of how to ruin this wedding.

"So.. You didn't answer me?" Zayn is starting to get into my nerves .

" I don't know, tell her that there was an urgent situation and I had to be there , tell her it is important " . what the hell is wrong with me , how could something be more important to me than being here with her.

"More important than her" what ? its like he could read my thoughts . but what if she thought the same thing, what if she thinks that she isn't important, what if she thinks that I don't want to be here for her. Maybe I should stay, no I can't I have to go.

"Zayn tell her what ever you want, but please make sure that nothing ruins her big day OK, promise me that" I looked at him dead serious , nothing should make her miserable and ruin this, it is her dream after all , to be married to the love of her life , have kids and  live happily ever after. It's kind of naive but that's what I love about her , she's simple but in an amazing way , there's no one like her , no matter how much they try, she's real not like the other girls , she doesn't pretend to care she does and she's not fake like the rest of them . Oh my god I'm truly, madly,deeply in love with her.

"From earth to Niall , are you there?" Zayn starts to jock but I'm not in the mood , I'm struggling on the inside whether to stay and ruin her wedding or not.

"Shut up Zayn" I warned and he playfully puts his arms up in defeat. lord , help me.

"OK, just don't get so grumpy "
What me grumpy no way .

"Whatever, I'll go now before I change my mind " this is harder than I thought , I didn't think this day will turn out like this, I should have thought things through before letting Zayn drag me into telling her.

"OK , so I have to go now you know , there's a wedding I have to attend "  no shit, like I don't know that you have to attend the love of my live's wedding , jerk.

"You're starting to piss me off, if you don't stop you will leave with a broken nose" I threatened and gave him a death glare, I'm not in a mood for this , I'm too heartbroken to even smile . I know he most be hurt but I'm ...

"I'm sorry Niall, I wish it was you she's getting married to not him" zayn hugged me and it was kind of relieving that he thinks I should be the one she's should be getting married to.

"Thank you Zayn, I'm sorry I didn't want to snap on you, it's not your fault"

"It's OK Niall , I understand"

Without any further thinking I just turned around and started walking not knowing where to go , just as far away from here as possible .
I can't have any regrets now , I've told here that I love her and she doesn't love me back.
It hurts to know that I was too late , to know that her heart has already been taken and she will never know , that I loved her first.
I hope that she doesn't hate me after this ,I hope we still can be friends , a noise from behind cut my thoughts , where the hell does the noise come from?

"Niall, Niall"

Someone's calling my name, wait could that be...
I turned around and its her , I can't believe my eyes. Wait why is she running and in her wedding dress?

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