R.E.D

Trouble

Jack's POV

When the alarm went off in the morning, Elsa and my heads popped off our pillows. Today was the day, her first invetro!

We both jumped out of the bed, and scrambled to get ready. We both showered, and threw on a pair of comfy clothes.

"Ready Snowflake?" I asked.

"Yeah!" she squealed.

I chuckled at her cuteness, then we walked out to the garage. We took my car to the hospital, and walked in.

Since this appointment was the first one of the day, we were immediately taken in to a room.

"Alright Miss. Winters, you are here for invetro fertilization?" the doctor said walking in.

"Yes." Elsa smiled.

"And I'm assuming you are the donor?" the doctor said.

"That and her fiancé." I smiled.

"Well congrates. I'm going to need you to leave the room for the process, I'll send her out when were all finished up." he said.

Normally I would have protested, but I did some research on the whole process, and I do not want to be here for that.

I walked out into the waiting room, and sat there for around 45 minutes. Finally Elsa came out smiling to me.

"Hey!" I said and hugged her, "How long?"

"The doctor said 13 days. I had his though schedule a second round.... just in case." she said.

"Smart. Come on, why don't we grab some breakfast. I know both of us ate nothing."

"Sure!" she said.

~13 Days Later~

Elsa was in the bathroom taking a pregnancy test, while I was outside pacing back and forth.

 "Elsa, come on, what is it?" I asked outside the door.

I heard footsteps and the door unlocked. Elsa had tears in her eyes, and she just shook her head.

I engulfed her in a hug and gently stroked her hair.

"Hey, it's okay. We both knew that the first round might not work." I said soothingly, "We are going to do this as many times as it takes. Money really isn't an issue for us, don't give up already."

She let out a sniffle, and nodded her head.

"Good, the second round is coming up soon. Have faith love, I'm going to make you a mom one of these days."

I was so hopeful that this could work, and we could do it. But months passed on, and Elsa had done 13 rounds of invetro, and still hadn't gotten pregnant.

Each pregnancy test, every negative, is just eating away at her. I'm trying my best to keep her going, but it's difficult.

Instead I gave her tasks to do to take her mind off of it. I let her redecorate and furnish our entire mansion, and let her redo her bedroom at the agency. When those were done, I tried to take her mind off of it in a different route.

I would take her out on dates, watch movies with her, play games, go to shooting ranges, and go to parks...... well used to. The first time we got to a park, and Elsa saw a couple holding a baby, she burst into tears.

After the first 7 rounds of invetro, she started disappearing sometime through the night, and wouldn't come back until the next morning. It turns out she started destroying Nightmare bases alone again. I am really worried for her, I'm scared one day that she won't come home at all. I also know that she won't listen to me. This is her way of getting her anger out, and no matter what  say, she will keep doing it anyway.

I always tell her that I will love her if she can have kids or not, and we still have some options. That isn't the issue though. Although I love her, right now she doesn't love herself.

I've seen her catch her reflection and shatter the mirror.

Elsa has become really cold again too. I'm honestly worried I'm going to lose her. After the 13th round of invetro failed, Elsa had her uterus checked out. The doctors said that she is fine and there is no reason that she should have failed this many times. So if she is fine, that means the issue is me.

What if after all of the stuff I did to myself when she was gone effected my sperm? What if I can't give Elsa a kid?

Elsa has wanted kids for years. If the problem is me, then this could be a deal breaker for her. I don't want to lose her, not again.

Eugene and Anna say I'm crazy, and that she wouldn't leave me, but they don't know her like I do. Elsa is a head strong girl, who always wants the best in life, and is willing to do anything to get it. One of the main reason we were able to bond so closely together was the idea of us having a kid together, that kid is the glue that makes us so inseparable.

What will happen if that dream can't ever become reality?