Dear A,
I remember how three years ago we'd walk around, without any care in the world, being the best friends that we were. Life, during that time, was beautiful. At least much better than it is now. And I remember how we promised each other that no matter what, we'd never forget each other and would always stay in touch. We won't be like all those friends, who when separated by a long distance, forget each other.
It's been two years since you left this weird town and to say that we've been talking frequently would be a lie. For a few months after you left, we did talk a lot, telling each other how much life sucks when we were not there to give each other company. I missed you so much, A, I still do.
After you left, I barely went out of the house and completely shut myself in. During my sophomore year, life sucked real bad and I began to cut. But I never told you any of that because I knew that you'd be upset. Then I made a few more friends who made life feel a little better with their presence but trust me, none of them are like you. You were there for me during my darkest times and I'm so thankful to you for everything you've done for me.
I remember the time after four months of silence, I called you in September. The conversation, at first, felt so awkward, it didn't feel like you, I didn't feel like myself. It was different and that was the moment I knew that everything had changed.
But I never knew it would lead to this. When you texted me day before yesterday that you wanted to move on, saying that 'one is not growing up when they're not leaving their old friends behind' I wanted to say that I don't want to grow up and you don't need to as well. But who am I to take your decisions? So I left it to that. When I wished you 'good night', you asked me to not call you again. Those words hurt, A. They cut me like a knife, bruising me. And I know that at some point in my life, I took you for granted but the love and respect I have for you can never be altered.
I don't know what to do now, but what I know for sure is that I've lost you.
I've lost you forever and it hurts.
With love,
S.
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letters i'll never send
Puisi"Don't place your happiness into the hands of others. They'll drop it. They'll drop it every single time." -A collection of letters I won't ever send- Copyright ©2015 by Scarlett (@ladyofthehaze). All rights reserved.
