Well, to say I'm upset is putting it very mildly. But, I've decided to remain relatively calm externally for my own reasons. The kitten I was promised and my mom was supposed to have gotten me Friday but, she had put it off got adopted. Yeah, the one I've been talking about that I've had a connection like no other to. Yeah..that one. The one I've visited everyday but ONE which I begged to visit him and was not taken to. The one who I prepared a basket for. The one that I had given a first and middle name. The one who loved me like crazy. The one who was a perfect fit for me. Yeah..that one..
Adopted. Somewhere else. Never going to see it again. MY cat. The one that all day long I was excited to go see everyday.
Initially, my reaction was to do what I had warned I would and it was agreed it was understood I would do should I not get him. Fill the house full of every free kitten and cat I could find. I actually had ALOT already lined up to do so with. But, my rational side sort of kicked in..
If I got every free cat and kitten I could find after calling vets offices, looking at online ads etc
That'd be probably like seventy five. I already knew of about thirty five-fifty I could get. Even if I only got about 35 which is probably what I'd end up doing, Thats alot of mess. Alot of annoyance when I'm trying to go outside. And there's no telling what kittens/cats I'd end up with. Not to mention, ALOT of carrying from the gas station nearby to pick them up from to my house cuz its the closest public location. ALOT of carrying . And knowing my luck I'd end up dropping some of them or they'd scratch me or something. And I coulden't get a break from them by teaching them to go outside because our backyard I think has a rattlesnake plus there's a barking dog next door. And our front yards not fenced and we live on a main highway and theres lots of kids and old people who if they saw a cat would take it home with them most likely. Plus there's no telling how many could get pregnant say, I got 40 cats and 20 of them were female, and they had say 5 kittens each..20 times 5=100 100+40=140. Thats ALOT of cats. Plus that'd be alot of mess. So I most likely won't end up doing it. It was more of a vindictive thing anyway rather than I actually want 75 unfixed cats that would quickly multiply into a 100 or more. So if I do it at all, I'll probably only get like fifteen or twenty. But, I guess we'll see what I feel about it tomorrow. If I do I'll try for mostly boys since boys can't get pregnant. But, I don't know if I even will. Its supposed to be storming tomorrow anyway I think and carrying tons of clawed cats who probably hate water through a storm from the gas station to my house does not sound like something on the top of the list of things I want to do.
Although an old lady friend said if she was me would have probably filled the house full a long time ago and said it'd get a point across and would show I'm willing to do something crazy and unethical to show that I mean it when I say I'll do something to show I will get my way about something I deserve and have been guaranteed and unrightly deprived of. I apprechiated her opinion that frankly sounds awesome, however, at the moment it might not be my best option. She said she thought if I kept on and on about it then I'd get what I wanted and woulden't have to resort to that. But, she said all of that a while back and I have kept on and on and I still have no cats. I do have two other options though. I could get the pregnant cat that lives with a family I'm good friends with down the street and the cat kind of belongs to me anyway because they kept it cuz I begged and they felt bad I didn't have one when I wanted one so bad and she's pregnant so I'd have her kittens when she had them. They let me claim her anyway. But, I thought with some love and stuff she'd be nicer cuz she's kind of mean and not very cuddly and won't let u cuddle her usually yet doesn't want you cuddling other cats. But, she's still that way. They seem to think its pregnancy hormones but, I don't know if I should risk it. Plus she's like only seven months so there would be a high risk of complications and since she's sort of mean and doesn't like other cats getting attention she might starve them and then I'd have to formula feed them and HOPE we are using a formula they could tolerate. If not they could die. Plus, I'd be responsible for when she gave birth I was told. I'd have to deal with the gross mess. And there's a big risk it woulden't go okay cuz her age and the fact she was almost starved when she came down there for the first time and she could have been pregnant then. Which brings me to my third option..
