With blasphemy i surrender

A/N this is my first story. ( this story is dedicated to my best friend)

BEEP! BEEP! BEEP! The noise of your alarm pulls you out of your peaceful slumber.
It was Thursday a school day, you rolled over and turned your alarm off "6:00am why the hell do I insist on getting up so early?"
you say still half asleep. As usual you get up shower, eat breakfast, do your makeup and get dressed all before 7:55.

As you walk to school you remember the conversation you had with your friend Riley.
Riley: hey are you going to be at school tomorrow?

You: yes why whats wrong?

Riley: I need to tell you something really important

You: okay. SWhy can't you tell me now?

Riley: it's personal to do it face to face is better

You: okay thats fine

Riley: okay then bye...

You: bye :)

I wonder what he meant by really important and personal I hope he is okay he has never been the most liked person in our school then again nether have I, I guess that's one of the reasons we became such good friends so quickly.

I start to worry as I enter the school gates, I push the feeling aside and keep walking. I see him get of the bus and instantly start to look around hesitantly calming slightly as he starts to walk over to me.
"can we talk in private?" he asks quietly
"of course were do you want to talk?" you say
"just follow me" he says already starting to walk
"okay" I say as I follow my friend away.

We got behind the class rooms at the back of the school.
"I'm sorry for what I'm about to do, it's just easier if I showed you, please do t be angry I need you to understand and hear me out okay" he said with a scared expression on his face
"I won't be angry with you I can tell your scared" I say trying to calm him
"okay" he replied and breathed out
I was not expecting what happened next he pulled up his sleeved hoodie to show rows and rows of red lines trailing up his arms some seemed to be fresh and others scared signaling he had done this for a long time.
"I'm sorry" he says in almost a whisper tears now running down his checks
"are you mad?" he asks
" Riley, no I'm not mad at you how could I be mad at you, oh my god no, why you" I say to him tears rolling down my checks as well
"wait your not mad?" he says confused
"no I'm not, how long have you been doing this?" I say as bravely as can scared he won't take me seriously if I was crying
"a year and a half" he answers disappointed in himself
"why did you not tell me sooner?" I say upset
" I was scared that you wouldn't understand"
"it's okay, you told me and that's all that matters when was the last time you did it?" I say already fearing the answer
"yesterday" he says his voice shaky again
"next time you even think about doing it I want you to text me or talk to me I don't care if you knock on my door at 3:00am I love you and I want you to stay with me forever so don't hurt yourself and if you feel like it I want to know straight away, okay?"
"okay" he says more calmly now
"wait, you just said you loved me" he says in a surprised tone
"it's because I do, I was to scared to say it before and I guess it just slipped out without me noticing, I understand if you don't feel the same"
"I love you (y/n), I always have and I always will" he said as he pulled me into a tight hug, we stayed that way for a while no one would find us back here so we could stay as long as we wanted and we both hade skipped class before so this wasn't new to us.
I snuggle into his embrace so he would know not to let go just yet.

A/N: I'm sorry if this was bad this is my first story.
I haven't figured out the whole story yet do if you have any suggestions on what I should do then comment your suggestion!