With blasphemy i surrender

School again

(Riley is back at school again in this chapter)
TRIGGER WARNING!!!

Riley pov
I was let out of the hospital yesterday and today is my first day back at school and I'm still trying to figure out what I'm going to do about (y/n).
Entering the school grounds I got a lot if weird looks from people probably because I'm covered in bruises and in this school gossip spreads like wildfire.
Trying to ignore the people staring at me I go to my locker to get my books for first period.

(Time skip to lunch because I'm lazy)

As I walk into the cafeteria the majority of the people there turned their heads to me and everyone's conversations died down. Everyone in the cafeteria erupted in laughter and yelled profanities at me, except for one. (Y/n), just looked at me with the most disappointed look you could see on someone's face.
This is when I think 'why do I even try?' I turn around and hastily walk out of the room, bumping into people on the way out. Still hearing the echo of laughter and yelling behind me my eyes start to well up with tears and I start to run.
Finally I get to my front door unlock it and go inside, stumbling up the stairs to my bedroom my tears only became heavier.
I look around and find the the draw, I open it and start rummaging through it until I find what I want, I pull out the blade and I step back and close the draw.
Sitting on my bed I roll up my sleeve seeing the scars from previous incidents like this I shake those memories from my head and focus on the present.
As I bring the blade down to my arm like so many times before my hand begins to shake but I settle it by thinking it will all be better soon.
Inhaling I press the blade to my skin and slide, as I see a small trail of Crimson blood fall down my arm I feel a false sense of security.
2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8...
I keep going until my arm is full and there is no room to keep going...
So I roll up my other sleeve and proceed to do the same after that I suddenly realised what I had done. I went into the bathroom and cleaned myself up and bandaged my wounds.
"I am such a fucking idiot." I say to myself.
I wander back in to my bedroom and sit on my bed once again, feeling light headed I decided I lie down for a while. Slowly my world engulfed itself in darkness and I drifted of in to slumber.

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it's been. Awhile